Buddie One Shots

Easy like Sunday morning

Ok so this might suck, I don't know. I wrote it during a slow period at work without even meaning to, the words just kind of flew out of my thumbs. Hope you like it! Comments are always appreciated <3
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If you asked him when it happened, he would tell you he didn't know.

If pressed about it, he would say something about it having been so long ago it was impossible to remember for sure.

If you held a gun to his head and demanded to know the exact moment in time the shift had happened, he would tell you it was the night in Bucks kitchen after the lawsuit was dropped that he realized he was in love with his best friend.

Everyone always talks about how things like these hit like freight trains, how one moment you'll be going about your life like normal then bam, nothing is ever the same again. But for Eddie that was hardly the case.

He had come to know his feelings slowly, in little glimpses and nudges, like a flower opening for the very first time. It was warm and bright and quiet. It had been the most peaceful moment of Eddie's life.

Finally being able to put a name to the feeling in his chest was like blinking into wakefulness on a sunny spring morning to find the warm golden light streaming through the curtains.

The love he felt for Buck was different than any he had felt before. Gentler.

Where with Shannon everything had been intensity and combustibility, with Buck it was soft and subtle. Shown with little smiles and selfless gestures. Felt in those compatible silences during lapses in conversation. It grew like a wildfire, strong and swift. It never stopped growing.

It hadn't always been romantic love. No, things hadn't always been like this. In the beginning Eddie and Buck had just been friends, albeit closer than Eddie has ever been with anyone. Eddie cherished the close nature of their relationship, appreciated the way Buck never failed to show Eddie that he really would have his back through thick and thin, but in the beginning it had been completely platonic love. Not in the way of a brother, but more in the way you love your favorite movie - a quiet contentment.

For a long time Eddie sat with his newfound comprehension of his feelings for Buck, deciding. It had been a question he asked himself hundreds of times while laying in bed late at night over those first few months; should he confide in Buck about this?

He agonized over whether it would be better to tell his best friend he was in love with him, or if things were just fine how they were between the two of them. He knew Buck would never leave Eddie behind after finding out about how he felt, Buck just wasn't like that. What Eddie couldn't stand the thought of was things changing if, when, Buck didn't return the romantic feelings for Eddie.

He couldn't fault Buck for it either, it wasn't as if falling in love with your best friend was just the natural course of the world. That didn't mean it would sting any less.

So in the end Eddie decided to keep his secret to himself, never whispering a word of it to anyone but God.

It wasn't easy. Not that he ever expected it to be. It felt as if his heart was ripped out of his chest every time Buck had a new date, or a second date.

Eddie did his best to move on, though no one came close to Buck. Then Eddie met Ana Flores again and he realized with startling clarity that his efforts were futile. There was never going to be anyone that came close to Buck. That's what made him so special.

So when Ana had asked him out, he said yes. Ana was kind and funny and Eddie tried his hardest, he really did, to love her the way she deserved to be loved. He had thought he was going pretty well with that. For a while.