Hold On

Chapter 41

Alessia's POV

He was right in front of me, I don't understand why I felt so nervous, partially was because of Sofia but this is Alek. someone who is straightforward and isn't a person to send others to ask questions that he could easily ask me himself. Slowly I lift my gaze up from the floor and find him looking at me with eyes of someone who is in love. I felt my breath hitch when he stepped towards me," Ali"

"Alek" I breathed out, his smile never faltered, it remained the same. The only change in his body was the movement of his hand as it made its way towards me.

"May I have this dance?"

I placed my hand on top of his, afraid that if I moved too fast, he would be startled and run away. "You may", we made our way towards the dance floor, but instead of dodging people as we walked, they moved away on their own. To the point where we were the center of attention again.

He placed his hand on my waist, and I was proud with myself that I no longer flinched from his touch, instead, it was sweet and I craved for more. He began to graciously move and I followed his lead, we remained quiet as the loud whispers of those around us filled the silence between us. Once they had lost interest, they slowly made their way closer to us as couples wanted to dance.

"What's wrong?" His question caused our still environment to shake, I could feel my whole world start to crumble. A world that I had hoped would be filled with happiness and a bright future but now I'm unsure.

"Alek, this is all I can give you".

"Wha-"

"I can't have kids", he looked at me with wide eyes, he was stunned and I could clearly see the smoke as his brain tried to process everything. "If your love is measured by what I can give you then please tell me if it'll decrease because I am infertile"

"I- what? Ali, I don't-" he stuttered as he tried to get his thoughts in order.

"He got me pregnant, when he found out, he beat me to the point of miscarriage. Then had a doctor perform a hysterectomy without my permission... I can't give you what you want. No matter how much I want to", I could feel a lump forming in my throat.

"Bee and Alene are it for me, but if you wish for a child with your own blood then I won't blame you if you look for someone who can give you that".

"Ali-"

"I will hold no resentment towards you, I want you to be happy and-"

"Ali."

"I want you to have that family your mother-"

"My mother?"

"And father wishes for you and in order for you to have a successor you have to have your own kid-"

"ALI!" he grabbed my shoulders, shaking me a little to get my attention. Everyone around us turned to look at us, Alek looked around before sighing and taking my hand in his before walking away from the crowd and towards a terrace. He opened the double doors, I walked past him and leaned against the stone baluster while he closed the door then turned to face me.

"I'm sorry-" he lifted his finger in the air, he closed his eyes and inhaled before slowly opening them and grabbing my waist; pulling me onto his chest.

"I don't know why you suddenly decided to unload all that on me but listen to me", he lifted my chin so that I could look at his eyes," you mean everything to me. If you were given the impression that this was temporary then please tell me and I'll do better". I opened my mouth to say something but he stopped me," I've struggled for so long to find my purpose in this dreadful life, and you are it; you are my life". He placed both his hands on my cheeks, bringing my face close to his.