The Space Between Us

fifteen <3

"Nothing." I pull the blanket to my waist and look up at him.

His emerald eyes pierce into mine. I push my hair behind my ear and he reaches for my hand.

"I just sat here and told you something Ive never told another soul in my life. Nothing is not the right answer." He scolds me like a child.

He lets go of my hand and reaches for the corner of the blanket. I suck in a huge breath as he pulls it away from my cold body.

How in the hell did I forget?

Once my thigh is bare he takes his fingers and brushes them along the now scabbed cuts that I created earlier this week.

I let out the breath I've been holding in.

"Peach.." He trails off.

He tends to do that a lot.

"Do I always put you at a lost for words?" I ask giggling.

"Almost always." He looks back to me and smiles.

"So when did this happen?" He asks, his hand still placed gently on my thigh.

"After you left my house." I say under my breath.

He quickly moves his hand and body away from me like I had burned him or something.

"What?" He questioned my statement.

"After you left my house." I said more sternly this time.

I wasn't mad anymore. He had good reasoning. That doesn't mean that it didn't hurt my feelings, but now I know that he was only doing it to save himself some pain.

I will always help him bear this weight.

His face falls from confusion to worry.

"Astra please don't tell me I'm the reason why you did this." He says in utter shock.

"It wasn't just you. Some stuff had happened earlier, and I already struggle with it and I just got all up in my head and it happened. I regret it now." I blab.

"That's not what I asked you." He says in return.

I knit my eyebrows together, didn't I just answer his question?

"Am I the reason why you did that, yes or no?" He questions once again.

"Yes, but." He cuts me off before I can tell him anything else.

"Nope, no excuses. Get back into the car." He hops out of the trunk and moves to the drivers side door, opening it and hopping inside quickly.

I hop out as well and open the passengers side door and jump in as well. He quickly pressed the button to close his trunk and he zooms out of the beach parking lot.

"Woah Caelum, slow down." He's going like 80 mph in a recommended of 30.

"I'm taking you home." He replies clenching his chiseled jaw tightly.

"Why? I don't want to go home yet." I call back at him.

"Astra did you not just reflect on what we just talked about? I spent all these years hurting you and I finally work up the courage to apologize and mend things just to fuck it up all over again. I hurt you." He says with tears in his eyes.

Not sure what to do I just keep telling him to pull over.

"Caelum please pull over."

"No."

"Please Caelum, you're scaring me." I reply.

He slows down to roughly 45 mph and continues going down my street. We pull into my driveway and it starts pouring down rain.