It is never a good idea
For the emotionally compromised, that is
To sit on their rooftops at night
Singing along to a song
That they don't quite understand,
Yet they identify so completely with
It is never a good idea
To allow thoughts into your mind
While you listen to the same song
Over and over and over and over and over
And to entertain them
To shoot back thoughts of,
'I can find another place to cut,'
Or
'You're right, maybe I should kill myself tonight.
After all, it's not as if,
Anyone here would mind all that much.'
It is never a good idea
To look back on your failures
And analyze yourself
Only to realize you're setting yourself up to fail again
That girl?
Maybe you will date.
But maybe she will only use you,
Like the last did.
That boy?
Maybe you can help him.
But maybe he'll see how frail you are,
And break you over and over,
Like the last did.
Maybe maybe maybe
A terrible little word
That creeps into your thoughts,
And scares you into keeping still
It is never a good idea
To fall into the trap they have set for you
To find yourself thinking,
'I am stupid,
and ugly,
and naive,
and useless.
I couldn't help them,
I can't help myself,
How am I ever supposed to help anyone else?'
The same words he used,
As he broke you again.
The same words she used,
As she left you,
Used up in a puddle of your own tears.
It is never a good idea
To tell yourself,
'What use is there,
Hoping that this will be different?
Hoping that things will be better?'
Because things will be different
And things will be better
Because you have learned from your mistakes
And you are strong
And it is never a good idea
To tell yourself,
'Don't care about other people,
It only ever leaves you broken.'
Because even if it has hurt you in the past,
You stitched yourself up,
And cared about people,
And helped them.
You are strong.
You are brave.
You just cannot see it yet.
