1:50am
I know it's been a year since i last wrote on here. I've actually started writing on my journal. I can decorate it when i feel like it.
I just had the urge to write on here today. I was watching some videos and then it triggered something. Literally no warning or nothing. So i'm just sitting here on my bed, thinking and typing. Making me realize that i do in fact have something terribly wrong with me. Do i need help? Absolutely. Will i ask for help? No.
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It's Wednesday, I have an eye doctor appointment later today at 10am. Then i have to go to the gym at night. I can't back out of the gym anymore. I made a promise i would go. So even if i feel like crap, i have to go. And also, i paid and it's a 12 month contract, no refunds. Every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.
Also, i have the biggest headache ever. I'm extremely stressed. I found out that my grandma is really sick and she had to be rushed to the hospital. I've been wanting to go so i can help her. No body over there wants to help. And if they do, they always want something in return. So maybe on Friday, i will be traveling to Mexico to help, along with my brother and cousins.
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I am so hungry. But i cannot eat right now. It's late. I am trying to get in the habit of not eating after 7pm. I bought an air fryer, it arrived on Sunday. Maybe later today i can use it make something. I wanna see how the vegetables turn out in there.
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Well, now my headache is getting worse, im going to try to sleep. I need to rest my eyes too. Maybe i'll be back later in the day, if not.... it'll probably take weeks or months before i write on here again...whoops.
