7:15pm
What's the point of saying Happy New Years to people if you know its going to be the same thing as always?
There's so many things I'm desperately waiting for this year.
Other things, not so much.
I had so many things planned for this year bur half those things already went down the drain and the first day isnt even over yet.
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I hate myself for being so moody most of the time.
I try to better myself but right when I feel like I am, the thick dark heavy blanket just throws itself on me. Stopping me from trying to achieve anything.
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There is this one person that tries to make me feel a bit better. Nothing happens because I always push them away but it's not like words are going to help.
Anyone can easily say things. Its the actions that count.
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I don't want to hurt others. I always end up doing it anyway. I dont want to or mean to. I want it to stop.
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Go away.
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Don't come back.
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Ever.
