My Random Mind

Entry 11

Omg my chicken nuggets! !!!!!

I did it!

I told Genie!!

And she said "awww your so cute."

I think I'm gonna die.

My heart is pounding so fast.

But, what if she's lying?

What if she is just telling me that to be nice?!

What if she deep down is disgusted!?!?!?!

But maybe she was telling the truth?

Idk which one it is.

But you wanna know what happened to ruin that happy, ecstatic mood...

ME.

I totally just ignored one of my friends just to try and get some guys attention.

AND HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND ALREADY!!!

I'm horrible.

I didnt even notice when she left!?

And when I found her she was crying and it made me feel like deep down I'm the most disgusting person on the planet.

But maybe I am disgusting.

Maybe i am horrible.

Maybe I'm ment to have no friends because I always hurt people and don't even notice.

Maybe I'm ment to be a hoe that tries to get with every guy and everyone hates me.

Maybe.....I'm not ment to be here.

Maybe.....just maybe.... I could make it all just go away.

Bur I'm to much of a chicken, to much of a baby, to much of a coward to push the chair out from under my feet.

Or slice down instead of sideways.

Or simply jump. Its as easy as jumping down a step.

But I'm a coward.

And cowards run from thier problems.

Just like I'm running now.

And im gonna make a sprint and Alpha, Genie, Claizy, if you see me you will know what my sprint is.

And Salv,

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I cant be the bestest friend for you. I'm sorry I made you cry. I never ment to hurt anybody.

Bye my chicken nug nugs.

Maybe this will be my last entry of my life.

Who am I kidding I'm to scared to leave.