Hedo my chicken nuggets.
I've been having a rough time lately. I've got so much in my mind and it's getting all mixed together. I don't know what thoughts go with what problem.
Problems:
1. Grades
2. Two peeps said they love me
3. My feelings
4. Eating
Yeah so I don't know how to feel about any of this stuff. It's like I got mixed into this big game of chance and I'm the one that's getting all the shitty cards like go to jail, get sued, oh and to top it off you have to pay these people for your mistakes.
I don't know what my purpose is in this world but right now all I'm doing is causing hurt and pain. This isn't me. I don't want this to become me. Alpha to,d me yesterday that she wanted the old me back.
Well alpha I want it back too. But it's buried so deep inside that it's really hard to find now. I spent almost all night searching for it. Trying to figure out where and when I changed. But I haven't found it yet.
Maybe I need help finding it. Maybe I need to talk to someone. Maybe I need to go away. Away from everything and everyone for a while. Maybe like have myself go to see a shrink and not talk to anyone's besides the shrink. And do my hw and pay attention in school and not concentrate on finding the perfect guy because I am 14. I don't need a boyfriend, I don't need a relationship, I don't need drama. I need to start fresh and new.
I want to start fresh and new, but I can't so I gotta make best of what I got right here and now. Because that's all I can do.
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My Random Mind
Randombasically almost everything I think about goes in here. either love, school, food, you name it. this is your key into my mind.
