My Random Mind

Entry 18

Well I think news the time to tell my chicken nuggets something.

So first off my mom is married to my step dad and we are having a family serimony in June on the 20 something. Well my step dad has three kids, Amber,Alex, and Ashlyne. Okay so you see Ashlyne has Ewings Sarcoma. It's cancer. She's been really bad lately so they decided to give her a make a wish.

And she picked this Disney place in Hawaii. I know cool right?! But the thing is the make a wish program only takes biological parents and siblings. Then they try to get step siblings and stuff. So since I'm her step sister we have to figure out our plane tickets and such. Lets just say my family isn't rich, we aren't poor either. But you get what I mean.

So since we might not be able to afford it my brothers and I are probably gonna have to stay with my grandparents for the week. Fun right? Not really. I mean I like my grandparents a lot but a WHOLE WEEK?!?!!! I can't do it so if we don't go I'm gonna stay with my friend Jade.

But the whole reason why I'm writing this is because of this one thing. We are going from the 28th of April till the 3rd of May. My birthday is May 1st. Normally We pick what we do and where we go to eat on our birthdays, but since we would be in Hawaii my sister gets to pick where we go and what we do everyday. Since it's her make a wish. So basically my birthday would suck. And if I end up not going my mom wouldn't be here for my birthday and that would suck also. So you see my dilemma.

And don't think of me as a selfish stuck up sister because I'm not. I love my sister and I do want her to get better. She's amazing and strong. She's been through so much and if I could go back and start this over I would take the cancer and put it in me instead. If only I could.

So yeah that's been on my mind constantly for the past week.

I guess that's why I've been so excited and happy then sad and irritated . Ugg life and emotions are weird.

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That's me emoji feelings the past week. And it just repeats over and over again.