Life in the middle-Harry Styles Fanfic AU COMPLETED

Chapter 31

Change my mind-One Direction

My head is swirling and I just sit there looking at the clock on the dash board in my car. I left the meetings car park and I'm parked around the corner because I couldn't drive any further.
I know I've done the wrong thing leaving and more so leaving when Harry wasn't there to stop me. Instead he went over to speak to Pete about Michael's behaviour.

I just wished he left it alone. I don't need more attention from Michael and now he knows Harry is irritated his game will being. I couldn't tell Pete he pushed me against the wall and pressed himself against me and touched my breasts. I just couldn't because I was so ashamed I didn't stop him in the first place.
I didn't scream or kick him or even push him away, all I could do was say no.

A simple word No, and it should have been enough but it wasn't, it meant nothing to him. And now I'm afraid of what he will do to me if he gets me alone or Harry. That's why I left, I couldn't be there if it meant I would inflate the situation...
Harry thought I mean he and I were a situation, but no it wasn't us, it was Michael and his power games and obsession. He isn't drug compliant, he told me so himself, he told me he liked to party hard and it didn't matter about the shit he spun to the group today, he is really unwell and I'm on the receiving end of his dangerous delusion.

I wonder what Harry thinks of me? Right now what would he be thinking, after telling me not to push him away, how would he be feeling?
I think everything with Harry has been fast and hard. It's not how I would normally behave, but he has this pull over me and I think the closer he pulls the closer I get.
But then I go and pull this shit. I leave him stranded and probably thinking here we go again? Maybe he'll wait for me to come back? Maybe he won't want to see or speak to me again? I don't know and I'm too scared to find out.

This evening in the car park at home, I knew someone had messed around with my car, the windscreen wipers were up and my mirror moved. In the 6 months that I've lived there has been no trouble as its a locked car park, but I knew and had a terrible feeling Michael had been there.
Again I didn't want to mention it to Harry, he doesn't deserve to deal with my shit even though he thinks it's ok.

I go to start the car and I hear a knock on the window. I literally feel like I've jumped out of my skin. I'm prettified. I'm lucky I have the doors locked.
I slowly turn my head to the side and a huge relief spreads over me, when I see it's Harry.

My perfect Harry, in every way, so perfect he can't give up on me. I unlock the door and he jumps in quickly, slamming the door shut behind him. I immediately press the central locking.
I don't even get a chance to say anything, Harry comes right up to me so rushed and the next thing I feel is his mouth crashing into mine, his hands holding my face. My mouth responds to his and I feel his warm tongue but cold lips and the feeling is electrifying.
I pull him in closer by placing both of my hands around his neck.
In his rush, he pulls me over the console and on to his lap. He hasn't stopped kissing me not even for a moment. I can't remember the last time someone made me feel like this? Never. My mind tells me. He is the only one that has me feeling and thinking crazy thoughts about him. I didn't even mind being alone and not in a relationship, no sex, it's a part of feeling depressed. So I welcome the feeling I'm feeling for Harry. Only for Harry.

I bring myself back to the present, back to enjoying the kiss Harry and I are sharing. It's still as intense as it was when he jumped into the car.
I feel him slowing down and taking both of my hands in his beautiful hands and slender fingers trap mine. I pull of him and sit back in my side taking a needed big breath. I hear him do the same and then he does something I don't expect. He opens his door and gets out shitting the door behind him.
I sit there shocked not knowing what to think. I what thinking he might be pulling a prank and he'll get back into the car, but he doesn't.

I open my door and get out slowly, he is a few feet away from my car now. What the fuck is he doing?
"Harry, what's going on?" I ask and hold my breath for his answer.
He look at me his eyes staring straight into mine, they even look like his staring right through me.
"How do you feel Echo?, I'm leaving now" he says his voice breaking a little.
"What do you mean you're leaving? I don't understand?" I ask, as he begins to turn and walk away. I come around the car trying to get closer to him.
"Please don't Harry, I need you" my voice betrays me. Although I have feel this way, I had no intention of telling him.
He turns around and stops.
"You have done this to me twice. You allow me in then shut me out. You said you wouldn't do it again but you did tonight. I want you to know how it feels to be wanted and unwanted in a matter of hours, it's fucking killing me Echo, I want you, all of you but you can't keep doing this to me, us, you" he looks deflated and defeated. I start to walk to him and he doesn't come closer but he doesn't move either.

"I...I panicked, I should have waited but I freaked out. You need to understand that I still haven't got full control over my anxiety, I can't help it but I'll try" I feel like I'm pleading and in a way I am. I don't want to lose him, thinking that when he leaves the country I'll be crushed but for now I need him.
"I need you Harry" I proclaim, he looks at me, and looks like he may answer but pauses.
He walks towards me and stretches out his arms, I allow them to hold me because I need this and he does too.
"Please don't push me away" I hear the urgency in his voice,
"Never again" I tell him as he holds me and I feel safe, safer still when it's just me and him.