Life in the middle-Harry Styles Fanfic AU COMPLETED

Chapter 35

I tell Harry I need a shower and to make himself at home. I feel so anxious right now and when I feel like this my need for routine increases. I have to have that shower and I need to do it alone.
I don't take to long and when I return to my room I see Harry sitting in my bed in my bedroom? Why would he be in here? No one comes in here and that's how I want it.
I must look completely puzzled because he stands up and comes to me placing both of his hands on either side of my cheeks.

"What's going on, baby? He asks and I melt at the use of his word 'baby'. It actually calms me done slightly.
"Nothing I'm just having a bad day, night whatever" I answer and try to look away from him. He tilts my head so I have to look at him.
"So tonight at the bar, you and me, wasn't good, I'm confused" he answers
"No, yeah, I mean it was good, great but I'm just very moody right now and you being in here is a bit of a shock, well a big shock" I tell him and he closes his eyes and breathes deeply. I am stressing this beautiful man.
"Echo, I'm trying to be here for you but if you don't want me, tell me" I can't believe he said that.
I pull away from his touch and move so I'm not so close to him, if I am, I melt and can't refuse him. My physical need for him is strong and I feel emotionally attached to him which scares me a lot.

"Ok then why can't I be in your room?" The question swirls in my head.
"I don't know" I start, "I have never had anyone in my room Harry, not even my family when they first came over, it the one room I have control over and I don't know" I finish.
"It's a beautiful room, very calming, I'm sorry if I came in" he begins to walk towards the doors.
Automatically my arm moves and I grab his shirt to stop him. He looks back at me and he looks vulnerable and hurt. I had no intention to hurt him.
I don't know what I want and I feel the battle between myself continue. I need him, I need his touch.

He turns and looks at me, searching my face for some answer. "What do you want Echo?" He asks and I recall the first time he asked me this, it seems like such a long time ago.
I can't let him go, I want and need him regardless of the shit I'm dealing with. I feel like this may be the last time we are together is I tell him about Michael tomorrow.

I step closer to the door, and grab his hand.
"I want you Harry" he sighs and tilts his head back and I realise how long his hair is. He beautiful locks and I want my hands to hold on to those locks while I kiss him. I want to have him wholly completely for myself. I want to feel the pleasure of him and give him pleasure in return.
"Show me" he whispers.

I try to walk out of the room with him, to go into the spare room, but he is not having it. He pulls both of my hands towards my bed, the bed I've only used, slept in. As he gets to the bed he sits down and puts his hands on my hips. I place both hands on his neck and start tangling my fingers in his long curls. I gentle pull his head back and he stifles a moan.

That does it for me, my mouth is on his. Lips touching, mouths agape and our tongue assaulting each other's. His hands move from my hips and undo the dressing gown I have on. Underneath I wear nothing and he stops kissing me to take in my body.
"I want you so badly, my love" my heart melts and I call his name as he's head buries into my chest kissing me everywhere. My head falls back and take a deep breath, he is killing me softly.

He stops when he's had enough and looks up at me his bright green eyes blazing.
He licks his lips and I know he wants to say something as he breaks eye contact with me, My head goes under his chin, I move his beautiful face up towards me, running my thumb over his bottom lip.
He kisses my hand and looks at me again.
"I think I'm in love with you" he proclaims
His words hit me hard and I stand frozen not knowing if I should speak or continue to allow our bodies to talk to one another.