This Girl...

the 1st kiss

Tw this chapter has mentions of rape, abuse and eating disorders if any of that Triggers you please don't read it

I was back in my dorm room suddenly I heard a knock. It was her with tears running down her face.
"I wanna tell you everything he did". I let her in and we sat down on my bed.
She had so much pain in her eyes and started telling the story. "At first everything was good with him. Til one day he started getting abusive." She lifted up her shirt reveling all the bruises. I reached out and grabbed her hand as she continued her story. "I told him I wasn't ready for sex and he pretended to understand but drugged and raped me anyway." I couldn't believe what I just heard.
I hugged her and looked in her eyes and said " Its not your fault he's a disgusting human and you didn't deserve that. " She continued on with the story "He told me I was fat and disgusting and eventually I stopped eating and was obsessed with becoming skinnier for him". He wouldn't let me leave him. Eventually I found out he was sleeping with another girl and I took that as my chance out. I loved him I really did even after everything he did. His sister was the most important thing to him I wanted to hit him were it hurt. So everyday I'd make horrible comments about her. Yes it obviously wasn't the best plan but after what he put me through I wasn't thinking. I never imagined she'd kill herself. We were friends before her brother I told her everything he did and she called me a liar that was another reason I did it. "  I took a quick breath and said "I understand why you did it obviously you can't take it back and you were trying to hurt the person who hurt you obviously what you did was messed up but at least you know it was wrong". She just asked "Can I stay with you tonight". I told her "of course you can". A few hours passed by and we both started getting tired. She layed in my bed and we both turned towards each other she said  "You know your pretty amazing". I blushed and thanked her. Before I knew it she kissed me and I kissed her back. That was my first kiss. I know its pretty sad to be in college and just having your first kiss. Before I knew we were making out. I pushed her off me gently and said your upset I don't want you doing anything you regret. She asked me just to hold her. I fell asleep with her in my arms. I felt so safe so comforted with her there. I wanted her to feel that to after everything she told me tonight. Even though a girl is dead because of her I still couldn't help but feel this for her... Does that make me a horrible person? Maybe it does but it was worth it for this girl.