Mending Hearts

ℂℍ𝔸ℙ𝕋𝔼ℝ 𝟙𝟘

𝔾𝕠𝕠𝕕 𝕄𝕠𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘

I woke up first, feeling completely refreshed and relaxed. I tried to roll over, but quickly realized it would be nearly impossible to do. We'd moved in our sleep, now spooning. I had my head on Bucky's flesh arm, with it wrapping across my torso like a seatbelt. The metal one over my waist and tucked underneath me. Even in his sleep he still head a strong grip on me, like he was afraid I'd leave him while he was asleep.

I yawned, and looked at the small clock on his bedside table. It was just after 9am. We've been asleep for over 8 hours?

Bucky mumbled something then nuzzled his head closer to my neck, his breathe causing goosebumps to erupt. He gave me a gentle squeeze, checking if I was still here and that it was me in his arms. He relaxed again and his grip on me loosened slightly.

The heat he was giving off was delicious. I always seem to get cold easily, constantly having a blanket or large hoodie on hand to wrap myself in. He was like my own personal radiator pressed against my back, one that help me against itself and made me feel comfortable and safe in its presence. I loved the idea of having one permanently.

I shifted slightly, trying to wake up a bit more and see if Bucky would wake so we could go get breakfast. Yes, food will help your crazy ass wake up and realise how wrong this situation is. I thought for a second. Is this wrong? Is it bad that I feel comfortable and safe in his presence? That I trust him more than I trust almost anyone in the compound despite only knowing him for a few weeks. Maybe it's not that bad, but it's still not normal for you.

Bucky stirred a little, and with a deep breathe through his nose he woke up. I was expecting him to let me go, to apologise and go back to being quiet and slightly awkward. Oh boy was I wrong. He snuggled as close as possible to me, my red hair probably poking his eyes out and tickling his nose, not allowing that to bother him.

"Hmmm... good morning Doll" he mumbles in the worlds sexiest morning voice, seriously how does he sound that good?

Of course I had to sound like a choked out moose that inhaled rust and doesnt have lungs anymore. "Morning Buck, howd you sleep?"

He moved the arm that was over me and shifted back a little so I could turn to face him. He smiled at me and moved some hair out of my face. "Really well after you came in, thank you for actually staying. Best sleep I've gotten" it came out as more of a whisper, like hes scared the outside world will hear him and come crashing down on him again.

I smiled at him. He was so gentle, like he was afraid of the world and what it could do to him. But then he can be protective and aggressive when he needs to be. It amazes me, that a man who looks like hades' long lost hotter twin can be so timid and sweet yet also a bull around a crowd of red. I whispered back "it's okay, I slept really well too. I'm glad I could help you". I reached out and ran my fingers through his hair, calming it down slightly, and he hummed in appreciation. I smiled wider.

He looked at me, his eyes flicking to my lips then back to making eye contact. "That's really nice, I like it" is all he says.

"What the head massage? Sorry, I charge for both hands" I joke, enjoying the light atmosphere.

He chuckles slightly, then gives me a smirk "no, as lovely as that is, I meant your smile. It's pretty"

I blush and Bucky's smirk widens at the sight. "I uh... heh, thank you". I continue running my fingers through his hair, the action soothing us both. "Yanno, I think you're one of the first people to make me smile like that" I say after the short pause. I dont mean to bring the mood down, but it's true. Nobody made me smile like that before, sure theres laughing and joking but I've never been one for simple smiles that have no real meaning. But somehow he brings that out in me, along with the blushing which isn't so great.

His eyes glaze with an emotion I cant quite work out, and it disappears quickly. "Well I hope to make you do it more, Doll". He smiles again at me, not looking away. It's as if he doesnt want to miss a single microscopic change in my expression, but I continue smile and chose to stay quiet.

The smell of coffee is what makes me fall back into reality, and acknowledge my hunger after not having dinner last night. I know the team should've got back early this morning, and will have had breakfast by now, most of them enjoying it far too early for my liking, and gone to sleep. I look at Bucky and decide my plan of action, "hey, you hungry? We could make breakfast together, if you want to of course". I smile awkwardly, and ignore the feeling of hope that he'll say yes.

He chuckles at my enthusiasm, but sits up. "Sure, lets go." Now, what I had failed to notice the entire time I was in his room was that he was lacking some clothing... aka everything except for his boxers. You cuddled a guy in his underwear? Oh boy we're screwed. I gulp and look away as he gets up, going to put on a pair of black joggers. I hear a laugh, a true deep rumble from his chest that makes my heart swell, so I look at him. Accidentally looking directly at his chiselled abs and defined v-line. Oh wow... um okay just uh... even my subconscious malfunctions at the magnificent sight. "My eyes are up here sweetheart" he laughs, causing my eyes to shoot up to his and a tomato blush to cover my whole body from the embarrassment.

However, I dug my grave deeper by blurring out "I know, but your abs are right there so what do you expect?" The second I realised what I'd said my hands flew to my mouth, so hard I might even bruise my face, and my eyes turned into saucers. He laughed even harder, and I was speachless at my own idiotic behaviour.

"Come on Doll, before you burst into flames from how hot your cheeks look" he chuckled and put his hand out to help me off the bed. I took it and a shiver ran up my spine, I was only in a black tank top and red plaid pj bottoms that were more for hot weather than the chill that was floating in the compound today.

Once I was stood up I rubbed my arms, hoping to bring the warmth back into them. Just as I was about to mention I'd stop by my room and grab a hoodie for myself Bucky walked into his wardrobe, quickly coming back out with a comfy looking black hoodie.

"Here, you look freezing and I dont want an ice cube for breakfast." He handed it to me and I gave a grateful smile before putting it on.

I giggled happily, "I love this, thank you". It was huge on me, I had sweater paws and it dropped to just below my mid thigh. It was incredibly soft, and smelt like a pine forest on a rainy day with a hint of musk. It smelt of Bucky. I genuinely loved it.

He chuckled at my awe-struck state from a simple hoodie, not knowing how much joy it gave me. He padded to the door and opened it all the way, gesturing for me to leave, "ladies first". He gave a small bow and I giggled again.

"Such a gentleman, thank you. Now-" I put on a deep voice and imitated a war-cry "FOOOOOOD!" And with that I sprinted to the kitchen, with Bucky walking behind me laughing.

And there we have it, chapter 10! I cant believe I'd find the courage to write at all, but to post it and get this far is amazing and I'm so proud of myself for doing this. I love the way things are going and I hope you guys do to :) I'm not sure how long this story will be or how long it'll take me to write but I'm gonna keep at it and try my best to keep this flowing well.

I'm considering making some sections from Bucky's pov, what do you guys think? Wont be full chapters but maybe to show his headspace? Lmk :)

Thank you to everyone who's been rly supportive of this and believed in me, whether you voted or commented or told me to keep writing or know me personally, it means so much and helped me keep updating this book. Thank you for the love darlings, heres to another 10 chapters hopefully <3