Drapetomania |

4.

When I would go to my cousin's, I'd stay over for maximum 3 nights, and we'd stay up till morning, watching kdramas, or anime, we'd make up scenarios of being characters in animes, we'd make them take our mind off what's happening around us even if it's just for a few hours, we'd make stories with different point of views and merge them together, we'd argue so much but again we'd end up staying up night laughing till morning, I can't say enough how much I love her, I can proudly say she's my soulmate, we have that love-hate relationship we're confident saying we hate eachother, but not that much with the 'I love you' we'd say things to eachother which we couldn't to anyone, no matter how many besties I have, my cousin has her own place, the amount of trust I have in her is like no one else, I may have fought with her alot, and if I see her again I will still repeat it, but my trust in her will never decrease,

I saw snow for the first time, and man it was beautiful and seemed ethereal, it didn't snow much but I felt the flakes, I loved how calm it was, during winter it was hard yo like we were freezing it was never that cold in UAE like the was different type of heater which had lotta trouble dealing with, and electricity? Don't even ask, it would go alot, when the pole would get blasted the electricity would go, people had generators and solar panels for electricity, man the owner of the house we stayed in were greedy af, just because we came from UAE they didn't allow us to use, excuse you but like my dad lost his job and not everyone who lives in UAE is a millionaire, honestly my phone and data were my sources of life lmfao, books and videos were my only help, and when my phone had no charge I would stop working lmfao but winter gradually passed and came spring,

During Ramadan it was cooler, it wasn't hot, it went alright, but there was always the empty space among us when we'd wake up for sehri or eat during iftar, my brother who is in UAE, posted on his status saying, "I miss getting up to my mom waking me up and eating together with my family during sehri" bro when I read that I started crying again the amount of times I mentioned crying in this book is alot but meh, anyways it was really hard my brother was never away from us for this long, and he was alone, come on we weren't those depressed family who avoided eachother their whole life, yea as an Asian we can relate to getting yelled or beat up by parents but that doesn't mean we go emo mode, we do feel emotional sometimes but it's normal we realize later it's because we'd not listen to them lmfao,

It went like that days, weeks and months, even though I couldn't go out, staying at home sometimes made me suffocated I felt the walls closing on me, everytime a bomb blasted the house would shake, and windows would violently shake aswell it felt like it would break any moment,

During July I felt more and more scared and started to literally beg my dad to get us visa to somewhere outta here, and my dad had that believe within him saying "Taliban won't take over Kabul" like I was frustrated at that point, we tried to take visa for UAE, but the flights closed, and my dad couldn't pass because he was obviously cancelled by UAE, I'm literally so angry and annoyed how I called that place my home, like I read sheikh Rashid's book, but man there's discrimination there alright? We're asked to leave and not return, because we're afghans and shia I think it's because we're shia's mostly lol, but I'm proud like karma's a bitch those who did this to us and others will receive karma and I hope they do in the worst way, honestly during my 13 and more than half years living in UAE I have no complaints, I've lived peacefully there was no one that could possibly say me off just because I'm an afghan, everyone was treated equally just the fact that we were asked to leave without us doing anything wrong no crime nothing is what dissapointed me in UAE the fact I called it 'home' now I'm starting to dislike it? Yea 🗿