Everything Is Falling Apart ( But At Least I Have You)

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The journey towards UA was made mostly in silence, neither boy knew what to say. What could you say after such dreadful things had happened? Katsuki's mind was laden with concerns for Izuku, concerns that he didn't know how to express. It was no secret that Katsuki was emotionally stunted, to say the least. He desperately wanted to reassure Izuku as Kirishima could, he wanted to put his mind at ease just like Uraraka could, but Katsuki simply didn't know how to. It was frustrating. What kind of boyfriend was he if he couldn't even cheer up Izuku in his darkest times? 

Izuku's mind was riddled with various thoughts, all swirling together to assault him and confuse his already foggy brain. He was still no closer to being reinstated in the hero course. His mother, the only member of his family, was in the hospital, possibly on her death bed. He had seen two notorious villains at the sight of his mother's injury, suggesting that they were somehow responsible for it. Izuku wanted his mind to go blank, he didn't want to exist if this was the type of mortal pain he was going to constantly be subjected to. 

Just when the two of them were nearing UA, Katsuki coughed awkwardly and hesitantly took Izuku's hand into his, effectively jolting Izuku from his deep thoughts. Izuku peered curiously down at the interlocked hands between them, his confusion was obvious on his face, it was accompanied by a gentle blush that was slowly working its way from his cheeks and up to the points of his ears. 

"Kacchan?" Izuku stuttered in a questioning tone.

"You know that I'm shit at all this emotional shit, I can't reassure people," Katsuki grumbled, "But you know that I'm here to help you, yeah? So... Just tell me if you need me to step away or you need me to get one of your friends. A lot is happening, and I want to help... you." 

Izuku squeezed Katsuki's hand and offered him a paltry smile, "Thank you, Kacchan. But, don't worry too much, your brand of reassurance is just as effective as Ochako's or anybody else's. I like just spending time with you, that's enough."

Katsuki's cheeks warmed and he turned away from Izuku with a muttered: "shut up". He readily accepted praise where his fighting was concerned, but when a moment became a bit too emotionally charged he was reduced to the inexperienced teenage boy he truly was.

"Kacchan..." Izuku whispered, "I just wanted to say..." he hesitated, unable to push the words out of his mouth. He wanted to say that he loved him. He wanted to express that despite their rocky history and the fact that they still had so much to work through together, he truly loved Katsuki from the bottom of his heart. But that was too hard to verbalise. That was too hard to express when his emotional state was already so vulnerable. So, he settled for saying something else.

 "I just wanted to say that I'm really thankful for everything you're doing. I know that you're my friend and boyfriend and, you know, it's sort of common courtesy to help someone out when they're going through something rough, but...thank you, from the bottom of my heart."

Katsuki's face only gained more of a ruddy hue at Izuku's sincere words. They played with his heart making it thump dangerously fast, he wasn't familiar with the uncertainty and warmth that Izuku always inspired in him, but he didn't hate the feelings at all. 

"Shut up nerd," Katsuki muttered somewhat bashfully. He pulled Izuku into his side and planted a quick kiss on the crown of his head. He was much better at showing his emotions physically rather than verbally, that was one of the reasons he sought out fights so often. It was also the primary reason he had landed him and Izuku with house arrest after the provisional license exam. 

"I don't think I will, Kacchan." Izuku hummed as he revelled in his boyfriend's simple affection.