𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘍𝘦𝘮𝘢𝘭𝘦 𝘈𝘱𝘱𝘭𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘵/ 𝗜-𝗟𝗔𝗡𝗗

CONCEPT TEST 6

the concept test day has finally come, it was really anticipated for everyone as they practiced for the whole days given, however, Yuji was unable to put up a smile on her face after what happened, she just wished that it was better if she didn't let herself ask about her mom's state when she obviously knows what's the answer,

she's mad and she understands her mom, if she's not ready to talk to her it's earning a feeling of guiltiness, but for Yuji, she could've spoken to her even just for a bare minimum and in that way she will know what to think.

thinking about things really messed her focus enough to get scolding by the judges during rehearsals, she almost forgot her lines right after the day of the final performance and it is driving her crazy that she has no time to break down and cram because of her stupidness.

''Yuji ah, what's wrong with you? the performance will start later are you going to keep this up?'' sun deuk said, there was a hint of disappointment. and irritant in his voice, she just nodded and kept saying sorry.

sun deuk scratch the back of his neck, he scoffed, ''you are first place, why are you not taking it seriously?'' he said and walked away from them.

 I-landers were called and gathered at the lobby, Yuji sat on the chair quietly sighing, she badly wants to punch herself right at the moment, she winced as she felt a sting on her knees that she got last night for hitting the floor hard, it was swollen but she tries her best to not show it, as always she endures physical pain.

The third test countdown was over.

today's ranking will shift the eleven member's ranking, she couldn't understand anything but her hands were trembling in fear as she watches across the screen, in short, she was panicking.

''TOP SEVEN I-LANDERS PLEASE RETURN YOUR BADGES''

I-landers stood up and bid farewell to their badges, she took a deep breath before going back to her seat, she sense that something was not right.

she immediately ran to the bathroom, everyone seemed so shocked and even ask where she was going.

she locked the door behind her, and started crying there out of nowhere until she was down on her knees, she can't endure the pain anymore, it wasn't about her mom either the scolding she received a while ago, she couldn't understand her feelings no matter how much she looks for an answer, she was thinking too much lately these days and it was unexpected that she will burst out in their performance day.

''fuck, I'm weak'' she sobbed hitting her chest.

''Yuji'' she heard heesung's voice from outside ''we're going to perform first you have to go out there now'' he said.

''go'' she unconsciously said, heesung frowned. ''just go, I don't want to perform anymore, I'm tired'' she continued.

''Yuji open the door, now'' he said trying to unlock the door.

she got pissed, ''get lost, you don't have to be nice to me this time''

there was a silence between them.

heesung got mad also still knocking on the door, ''if you're not going out, I won't perform too'' he uttered. ''why are you making this hard for you?.... hate me if you want, throw every shit you think to me, what about sunghoon, jake, sunoo, jungwon , what about them?..... what about me?''

'' you keep telling everyone to not give up on their dreams, then what are you up to right momentarily?''

she opened the faucet, she listened to the sound of the water along with heesung's words.