love runs out

19

Pov Cleo

I feel his lips on mine, omg his lips are so soft. His hands are laying down on my cheek, rubbing over it, it more feels like burning on my skin. He cuts the kiss off for a while. We both breathe heavily and we look at each other into the eyes. What was this?

"Wow," I laugh and he shakes his head.

"I'm sorry," he excuse himself.

Sorry? Wait what?

"I wasn't supposed to kiss you, a mistake, every human makes mistake, right?" He asks me.

"Mistake?" I ask him confused.

We kissed and no he says it was just a kiss basically.

"This game is stupid anyways," he says and walks off.

What did this kiss mean for him, for real though. I can't believe he's lying to me and says it is just a kiss, it can't be. I feel like it can't be a freaking kiss only.

I walk behind him and he sighs.

"I thought.." I get interrupted by him, again. Again his lips on mine.

They're soft, light pink and the kiss is so good. He pulls me closer to himself and I wrap my arms around his neck md he's moaning between the kiss. He wraps his arms around my waist and, damn that touch is just everything. I bite on my lips and he chuckles. "Don't," he whispers and he's fighting with this tongue to connect and play a game with mine. I open my mouth and he goes all into it. He pushes me behind against the wall and I smile quietly. He continued to kiss me, it felt so so fcking great and good. Even though he said it was a mistake. I immediately felt sick to my stomach and he stops.

"What is it?. He asks me and he rubs over my cheek. "Nothing," I mutter and decide to stop the kiss, just enough of it. I get my jacket and I don't know what to feel right now or either what to do.

"There's something," he continues.

"There's something, wow wow you noticed," I say and he gives me a confused look in his eyes. He's just confused, what? He kissed me twice and he's confused and saying it's a mistake.

"What!s wrong with you?" He asks me.

I starting scoffing and mutter quietly no.

"How dare you to ask that," I scoff at him.

"I did nothing wrong," he says.

"And the kiss?" I ask him.

He shake ship head and starting laughing right in my face.

"It was a stupid kiss. Just a stupid kiss, I wanted to kiss someone, you were next me so," he says.

I feel madness building up but I control myself to not explode the situation. "You know," I say and he raises his eyebrow up. "You're dick," I mutter and do my jacket on, after that I open his front door and I give him once a look before I go. I can't tell the emotion he feels and I slap the door closed behind me.

I put music on, decide to go for a walk. Do I wanna know from Artic Monkeys. Such a good song and I let me go into the music. Whenever I set a feet outside, the fresh air is going through my whole body. This feels incredible good and I just want to relax, after such a confusing afternoon. Martijn is just a confusing person, especially right now. On one moment he's happy, being very silly and just nice - I like that part of him, he should show it more often to others. Not five minutes later he's being moody, irritated and looks so tired. It's just weird, his tiredness can be from his work so maybe that is the problem, nor not really. Anyway, I think already to much about him right now well instead should be relaxing and just enjoying the nice weather in Amsterdam for once in the kind of windy and start from the autumn.

After being away for more than 3 hours I come back to the apartment and Ava is getting up from the couch. "You're safe luckily," Louis says and he sighs relieved. "What?" I ask Ava confused. They know I was at Martijn's right? "Martijn told us you walked away," Ava tells me immediately. Okay that makes sense. "I'm sorry," I say and she shake her head. "It's alright, now eat, I got already dinner for you," she says and takes me to the kitchen. She probably will ask what happened between us... it's not like we're couple or something, I think I could never be in a relationship with someone's not telling me everything or lies. So it's a no for me.

She excuus herself and walks back to Louis for a few minutes before coming back. "He stayed here for me until you were home," she smiles. "Thank you Lou," I thanked him and he smiles. She gives him a kiss before he goes and we both say goodbye. "Cleo," she immediately starts even before the door fall closed in his lock. I try to ignore her questions and just continue to eat my dinner I eat a whole hour too late basically.

"Cleo, what happened between you guys?" She asks once again and rubs over my arms.

"Nothing special," I mutter and I can guess she will say I lie.

"You!re lying. What happened?" She ask me.

"We kissed," I say quietly as i could.

There fell a silence right after I said it and slowly I look up at her.

Instead of seeing a annoyed face, i see a little smile.

"And was is good?" She asks and raises her eyebrow.

"I cut it off, then we kissed again and then he stopped the kiss," I say without emotion.

"And you didn't felt anything? No warm feeling or anything?" She asks and I feel her hand on my back, to comfort me.

"He has soft lips, light pink and he kisses very good, he's good in it," I smile shyly.

Ava smiles too.

"Where are you waiting for then?" She asks.

"He said: the kiss was just a stupid kiss, a mistake," I mutter, I feel tears in my eyes.

"What the dick. Damn mit," she mutters irritated.

"You were right, I was stupid and I'm naive to believe him," I mutters and start snobbing.

"No, you're stupid. Look at me. He's asshole saying that," she tries to make me feel better, it kinda helps. "You will be allright. Go to your work tomorrow and ignore him for a while and whenever you're ready to talk then talk," she give me the advice and it's honestly the best I could have right now. "thank you. I think I'll get some sleep," I thank her and she smiles. I walk back to my own room and make myself ready to go to sleep.