love runs out

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pov ava

Oh god, why he's being such a dick to my best friend, to me, fine. He doesn't like me and I do too. But for my best friend she's so innocent and careful, she believes him, every piece of it. I wait for a few minutes and when I hear completely silence. I decide to visit Martijn and talk with that piece of shit, because my best friend doesn't deserve an asshole like how he's acting. I know in general he can be nice but he doesn't show it. I will not be the person to cry on a shoulder expect my best friend and Louis.

I grab my keys and make sure Cleo is asleep. I don't know how the real situation is between them, maybe they did more than just kissing or he's really thinking it's a mistake. I walk upstairs and I quick stand in the front of his door, I bite on my lips and I kinda doubt if I should worry about them. It's not my case at all of course but I just think fuck it. I knock on his door and it takes a few minutes before he finally opens.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" He mutters and the door is still open. I walk through and walk behind him after closing the front door. "Sorry but what did you tell her?" I ask him irritated. "Please ava shut the hell up. It's not even your shit," he says and rolls with his eyes.

"I was busy," he says and walks to his kitchen, "fucking other girls?" I ask him. "I didn't ask you to come here, so what the heck are you doing here, say it and leave,' he ignores my statement, i wouldn't be surprised if he did that. "Why did you say the kiss was a mistake," I say. He laughs and raises his both eyebrows. "Are you stupid? It was a freaking kiss nothing else and nothing more," he summaries it. "I'm not stupid. I know you can hurt people a lot and painfully. And cleo, she's the one that doesn't deserve that pain you put her through. And you still laughing and playing it all cool. You know Martijn, fuck you," I say and turn around.

"Ava, you should keep your mouth shut, you don't know anything about it,"

"Than stop acting like a dick!" I yell at him.

"I'm not a dick. She's stupid and naive to believe me," he mutters.

"You're such a asshole," I roll with my eyes.

I decide to walk back to my own apartment, I'm doing with this stupid conversation and I feel his hand on my. "What the fuck do you want?" I yell irritated and than I feel his lips on mine. I push him immediately away. "You're crazy. I'm with Louis. He's your friend," I say and he walks away.

"He's stupid," he mutters and I walks away to my own apartment.

Why the fuck did he kissed me? That was not supposed to happen.

I make my way back to the apartment, I check up on Cleo who's still asleep. I change myself and I go to bed quick, I will tell Louis tomorrow about the weird kiss that Martijn did.

pov Martijn

You stupid, why the fuck did I kiss Ava instead? That's the most stupid thing I could do, it's betray against Cleo and Louis. I decide to app louis about the kiss, Ava probably told him already. Okay, he probably will only hate you for it.

m: hey dude, I need to tell you something

l: what's up?

m: I kissed accidentally your girlfriend

l: what?
l: do you have feelings for her?

m: no, absolutely not and she pushed me away

l: what didn't she tell me then?

m: seriously? I don't know it just happened

l: thanks man, i will talk to her

m: realize it's my fault, I kissed her, so don't put the blame on her, she's good for you

I put my phone away, I don't want to have a fight between them. They're absolutely goals and amazing together. I smile and I grab a bottle. Remember what Menno said, don' drink, it's not solving your problems. I put it back in the cab it's and walk away from the cabin full of alcohol drinks straight to my studio. To make music and try to reflect on everything that happened for the past years. Of course, if Rachel was still here, I'll be with her and no one else. She's the one for me, even though I was pretty young.

I put my headphones on and just go in the flow from the sounds of my laptop, the melodies that is playing in my head and put them into my laptop. Since Rachel left basically music is like a therapy for me, it helps me fo stay focused and I can express my feelings into it. Al is it happy or sad nor more romantic/sexy feeling. It can be literally anything what it feels like for me. That's the nice thing about music, no one's telling you what to do, you do whatever you want, whatever feels good and finished that. Further in live you've so many rules that belong to your life, like keep your finance balance stable enough, clean ur shit, boost your confidence, be more social, be more loving and caring. So many stupid rules in my eyes which are not helping me to move on like people ask me to do so.

Okay focus martijn, stop overthinking about shit and just let it go. I finish up songs that watse begged me to finished few weeks earlier. Watse is a great guy, really but like everyone else he wants me to move on. But I just can't leave her behind and think about her anymore from one day. I have to do this in little steps but for so far I saw no one around doing those little steps I need.