Realize》SaTzu✔

Chapter 36

TZ's POV

I lay awake in bed, head pounding and muscles tense. Three days...That's how long it's been since I've left the house, since I've slept more than a few hours.

Of all the places she could have gone, what led her to Forks, to my hometown?

I imagined in my head our seeing each other going differently. Our eyes would meet; she'd give me one of those gorgeous smiles and run into my arms. I'd hold her close, vowing to never let her slip through my fingers again. What transpired was a bucket of ice water being dumped on and flooding my dream, thrusting me back into reality and the gravity of the situation. How can I forgive her when I can't even deal with my own shit? Do I even want to forgive her? My head says no, but my traitor heart says yes...I want to follow my heart...

It wants me to get out of my bed and go find her.

My eyes drift over to Brielle who has just woken up. She rolls her chunky body over and crawls up on her hands and knees. Shaking the fogginess from my mind I move from my bed and approach her pack-n-play. She looks up at me and smiles.

"Hey beautiful." I scoop her up into my arms. She rests her head in the crook of my neck and I hold her tight. I love this little girl so much. She's my world, my everything. My happiness lies in her big smiles and hugs.

"Da da da da." She sings slapping me in the face, not hard but I guess she wants me to pay attention to her.

"Let's get you a bath."

I enjoy bath time with Brielle the most. Now that she's able to sit up on her own she has so much fun exploring the water and bubbles. She screams in delight when I grab her pink rubber ducky and dunk it under water. She's oblivious to the craziness going on around her...I just wish her mother were here to enjoy these moments too. I don't know, I can't understand how she can look at her child and not fall completely in love.

"Knock, knock." Yeonwoo walked into the bedroom already dressed for the day. Everything in order from her perfectly styled hair all the way down to her leather pumps. She's another person I don't understand, and probably never will.

"How's my princess?" She closed the lid on the toilet and sat down. Brielle answered by splashing water, some of it sprinkling over the tub and almost landing on Yeonwoo's shoes.

"Watch it sweetheart. Auntie loves you to pieces but these are Louboutins."

I shake my head and go back to playing with Brielle.

"How are you feeling?" Yeonwoo asked.

"Fine."

"You don't have to keep everything inside you know."

"Yeonwoo please, if I have a problem you are the last person I would come to." I realize how harsh that sounds too late when her eyes fill with tears. "Shit Woo, I'm sorry."

She shook her head and composed herself. "No, don't apologize because I know you meant it."

"It's just followed by something nasty from you and I don't need that right now."

"Well forgive me for wanting to protect my brother."

"Being protective is one thing but being downright rude is another. I can't talk to you when I know how you are."

"What if I promise not to say a word. I'll keep my mouth closed."

"Not possible." I pull Brielle from the tub when she starts to prune. Yeonwoo follows me back to my bedroom.

"It is possible."

"How long have I known you Woo?...Like, your entire life. You haven't stopped running your mouth since mom and dad brought you home from the hospital."