Realize》SaTzu✔

Chapter 16

SN's POV

Spencer's is so fucking cool!

I never have enough money to come here anymore. When I lived with Mark he would bring his favorite girls, which included me and four others, to the mall and let us shop for a few hours. I stumbled across this store and fell in love. It's so wacky and full of sex...I love it.

"You should get yourself one." I turn to Yeonwoo. She's caught up in looking at the vibrators with me.

"I have plenty at home." She smiled.

I walk around some more looking at all of the merchandise. It brings back memories, some pretty good ones I can remember. I always felt like a kid in a candy store whenever I got to go to the mall. When I lived with Gran she made the majority of my clothes so I never went shopping, and then when I lived with Sora...I never got to go to the mall. We shopped at the Salvation Army, not because she couldn't afford to buy me clothes, she just didn't want to spend her money on anything that would make me happy.

I felt Yeonwoo walk up beside me just as I sat down a box of edible panties. There's something I've been meaning to talk to her about for a while. "So, I have a question since we're bonding."

"Sure." She's such an eager beaver.

"How come you and Luis don't have kids?"

"It's...complicated." Yeonwoo sighed as she walked around me to pick up a bottle of flavored lube.

"You can't have kids or something?"

"No, that's not it. Luis and I got married when we were eighteen. We had our whole lives planned out from the beginning; finish college, start our careers, then kids. We finished college, our careers are better than ever...We've been trying for a baby but haven't been successful yet."

She looked so sad talking about it. I feel bad; I don't want to see her upset. "That's fucked up." Just then I have an epiphany, "So what happens if you can't get pregnant?"

"We'll probably look into adoption."

Great answer shorty!

"You know you could have this one if you want." I gesture to my stomach and what lies beneath.

She stepped back with a frown, "Your baby? No, I couldn't do that."

"Why not?" I cross my arms, "Look, I know we haven't known each other very long and I'm not the easiest person to get along with, but I planned on giving the baby up for adoption anyway and since you're thinking about adoption why not consider me giving you this baby?"

"Because...Sana, it's really sweet that you want to do that but-"

"But what? My baby not good enough for you?"

"That's not what I'm saying. I just think this is something you need time to really think about."

"I've already made up my mind." There's nothing to think about.

"But it could change. Haven't you ever heard of women who go through their entire pregnancy thinking they want to give up their baby, but when they give birth they change their minds? Who's to say when you hold your baby in your arms that you won't fall in love with her."

"Her?"

"Shit! I'm sorry." Yeonwoo covered her mouth.

"You know?"

"No...Yes. Tzuyu is going to kill me."

"So he knows then?" I force myself to keep my composure because this isn't her fault. Oh, but when I find that bronze-haired bastard I'm going to let him have it.