Realize》SaTzu✔

Chapter 38

TZ's POV

Two Years Later...

January

"I have to say Tzuyu, I'm impressed." Dr. Park removed her glasses and smiled fondly at me. I found myself blushing at her praise, a little embarrassed that she broke her stern character to give me a compliment.

"Thanks, but I never would have gotten through it without your help."

"It was really all your doing. I just pushed a little."

I smirk at her. "Yeah, you pushed alright."

When I first started to attend therapy with Dr. Park, to be quite frank, I didn't like her. She was no taller than five foot two, in her early sixties with graying hair and wore a sharp pair of horn rimmed glasses that sat at the end of her nose. She was always in black, and spoke with authority. She was aggressive, assertive, not exactly what I was looking for in a therapist. I was looking for someone to coddle me I guess, and her direct manner put me off at first...But I needed that. She came highly recommended by a colleague of my fathers who said he and his wife had been seeing her for years. I thought, wow they've been seeing her for years and she hasn't helped solve their issues yet? Really, it was a request of Dr. Park's that she maintain long relationships with her clients. She had been a huge help in saving his marriage, but she liked to give them the option of when they felt they wanted to sever their ties.

That's why I'm still here.

She made me talk about things I had selfishly been holding in. She made me revisit past experiences all for the sake of showing me that with each test there is a brighter side. I may have stumbled, or even fallen down, but I got back up and she thought it imperative that I understood what it meant. Time waits for no one, and the longer I sat in my home hiding away from the tough things, the more I was wasting important moments of reaching the happiness I want so very much. I'm doing much better now.

"You've shown incredible growth."

"I have you to thank for that." She really had been a God send. After my last meeting with Sana I had slipped into depression. It was like, I said all that I wanted to say to her and I declared that I was going to get my life back on track, but when I got home I didn't even want to get out of bed. My mom came over and took Brielle for a while. That almost killed me. I couldn't even do it for my daughter. I felt like a failure, and I hated myself even more. But funny enough the person who got me through it was...Sana. I called her, and she answered just as she'd promised. She listened to me, she cried with me, then she cursed me out. Told me to get my shit together or she would kick my ass. "Only one of us is allowed to be fucked up Chou, and it sure isn't going to be you."

I laughed, genuinely laughed for the first time in weeks. Leave it to the girl who turned my world upside down to be giving me a pep talk. Crazy, right?...

I reached out to my father, who then gave me Dr. Park's number, and I've been seeing her ever since. It's been two long years full of ups and downs. The ups being my overall mental health had improved. My relationships with my family were better, especially now that my brother and sister have children of their own.

Selena and Jun welcomed a set of identical twins girls, Sienna and Jianna. Tiny terrors are what I call them. They get into everything leaving a disaster in their wake. Jun eggs them on, loving that his baby girls are a force to be reckoned with. He secretly wanted sons, although he would never tell Selena that. He wanted sons that would take after him and since he didn't get that, he's grooming his daughters into tough little monsters. I love my nieces, but I have to put up anything expensive when they visit. Yeonwoo and Luis also welcomed their first son last year, Aiden. He's the spitting image of his mother and just as high maintenance. Luis is in love, and they will be welcoming a little girl into the world later this year. Motherhood has mellowed Yeonwoo out a lot. She will always be a pain in the ass, but she tends to keep her nose in her own business and I couldn't be happier about it.