"do you still felt uncomfortable around me?"
felix's pov
the question. made me froze. no one have ever asked me a question like this before.
"wh-what do you mean? i feel comfortable with everyone." i lied.
"why are you lying?" he asked me. i can't do anything but looked at his face.
"felix. i am your friend. you can tell me anything. do you think i am stupid? when i told you my things, your worried face. your panicked face when we first met. the way you stayed away from everyone. i did noticed. but i gave you time. i know you need it. just answer this. do i still made you felt uncomfortable just like the first we met?"
i can't help my tears started to flowing on my face. i saw he quickly wipped it.
"i-i'm sorry. i didn't mean it." he said and held my hand then sat me down back on bench.
"did something really happened to you until you became like this?" he asked while caressing my hands softly. i smiled and finally decided.
you trusted him.
"do you remember the time when i told you i have once got a boyfriend?" i asked him.
"yes. why?"
"he's actually not my boyfriend."
"oh, then who is he?"
i rethinking. maybe i shouldn't tell him about this yet. i should tell him about my other thing.
flashback ( 11 years ago )
⚠️ mentions of rape / sexual harrasment.
i was just walking to the bus stop since the teacher has dismissed us. and it's also christmas soon! we got holidays.
i arrived at the bus stop and saw a people in the crowded in front of my school gate. i looked at my watch.
maybe sneak peeking won't hurt, the bus wasn't here yet.
i quickly ran to the crowded place and looked at the middle of it. i can't see anything because of my height. suddenly, someone gripped my wrist and pulled me to his car.
i have screamed to the people in the crowded. but, there's non of them listened. or maybe they are too busy with taking pictures of the attention.
"WHO ARE YOU!!! I NEED TO GET TO MY BUS!" i screamed while crying and kicking the door's car. i want to punch the guy who drove, but he tied my hand.
"CAN YOU FUCKING SHUT UP?" he screamed at me back. i can't help but crying. he tied my hand so tight. my pulse hurted so bad.
i can't even breathe properly.
"please let go of me."
"l-let go o-of me."
"please..."
i closed my eyes.
i can't even remember what happened, but.
i woke up in a room. i was naked. i wore nothing. when i was ten. i was in a bed. i became scared and covered my body with the white blanket.
i cried. cried till my eye balls out. i don't fucking care. i can feel i was being touched. my legs are limping.
i can't stand it anymore and just screamed.
after i screamed and cried, someone got into this room. i remember his face. he's the one who pulled me into a car.
"wh-who are you?" i asked him with a shaking voice.
