deep in the sea (I give you my heart) // jenlisa

Chapter 10: Chasing Feelings

A/N: I'm back!

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The soft tapping of Lisa's quill was the only sound in the room. She was tapping the tip of it against the edge of Jennie's desk, the ink long since dried. Staring at a blank spot on the wall across the room, she rested her chin thoughtfully in her palm as she leaned onto her elbow.

Jennie had told Lisa her story over a week ago, but Lisa still thought of it daily. She replayed the past of her captor- no, not captor... Not anymore; Lisa wasn't a slave on some unknown island, forced to live a life she didn't want to.

Now Lisa was starting to consider herself at least an ally of Jeju. She wouldn't call herself a pirate, but after spending multiple months working amongst both Jennie and Jisoo, she could definitely get behind the freedom Jeju and the island gave to its people.

So instead she was replaying the past of the mysterious woman who she had an incredibly strange relationship with over and over again in her head.

Her tragic childhood- her even more tragic teens... Jennie had lived an incredibly hard life that made Lisa's previous situation look like a cake walk. She watched so many people she loved die, and was put in the same exact situation Lisa had been put in when they first met.

While her past nor her curse justified her actions, it helped Lisa understand Jennie a little bit more. It took the sting away from her loss, even if she was still left with the deep rooted sadness that felt like a horse was standing on her chest every day.

Lisa missed Bambam terribly, and she wished he didn't have to be taken away from her, but part of her understood that he was gone and there was no use hanging onto the anger she had towards both Jennie and the world... Although some days that was easier said than done.

She still found herself crying in frustration alone every few nights, and she's had to hold back some bitter words towards Jennie a couple of times... But it was getting better; the gaping hole in her heart was closing ever so slightly.

Which is what made it so much easier to feel sympathy for Jennie and all the pain she'd felt in her life; the loss of literally all her loved ones, her abduction and forced piracy, the betrayal of the one she loved the most- Hyuna...

Lisa was so lost in her thoughts, continuing to blankly watch the wall that she didn't even notice Jennie walking into the room. Jennie paused, noticing her thousand-yard stare and her subconscious tapping of the quill in her hand.

"Lisa?" She asked in a soft voice, shifting the thick stack of letters from her right to her left hand. Her assistant continued to stare off, doe eyes half lidded as they flickered ever so slightly. She didn't even notice Jennie's small smile, watching her for a moment longer before deciding to break her out of her trance.

Stepping closely next to her, she started to wave her hand in front of Lisa's eyes. She blinked at the movement, inhaling sharply as she realized she hadn't been doing what she was supposed to do while Jennie was away for a few hours.

"Oh, shoot- I'm sorry," Lisa looked up to see Jennie's half smile, her stomach fluttering. Ignoring the sensation, Lisa stood from her chair quickly. She adjusted her sword to hang at her side instead of lay across her lap, shuffling from in front of the chair so that Jennie could take her spot back.

Jennie hummed in an amused tone, green eyes following Lisa as she took a step back. "Where'd you go, Sweetheart?" Her head tilted, blinking slowly as Lisa tried not to show how flustered the nickname- once mocking, but now endearing –made her.

"I was just uh... Just thinking about things," Lisa brushed her hair from her face, refusing to look at the sweet eyes Jennie was giving her.

It seemed that once she'd opened up to Lisa, Jennie felt comfortable enough to drop her hard-ass act and actually connect with the former naval captain.