Falling for my best friend {EDITING}

5. a pretty ugly argument

                                                                       z

the alarm woke me up and i sat straight yawning. what would i do if laura hadnt allow me to stay? dead for sure.... she is a lifesaver both outside of the set and in the set. right now i need to stop exaggertating....maby i should ask tom what was it about..and if maby what i saw was a misunderstanding.No ,do you   even have the guts to talk to him after that?i think i need time to myself...to figure everything out. did he even figure out my keys were on his kitchen counter? what was his thoughts and is he worried abt me? ugh no z, stop! tom is your best friend right? and you both swore nothing else right? then stop it. i rubbed my eyes and stood up before laura.she was still asleep as always. i went to the bathroom,refreshed my self ,changed my hairstyle to a long ponytail and wore same clothes. Now ,i have to go to take my keys back..maby he didnt noticed but what if he did,what should i say? does he think i know i saw everything? ugh i mean thats what happened....but still he isnt that smart to figure that out and plus he would start to apologise when he shouldnt...and freak out. but why would he? z,you are really acting weird this past few years. c'mon stop.

I took a pencil and paper and wrote a little note for laura when she wakes up,so she doesn't freak when I leave. i place the note in the most obvious place she likes to go to, the mirror.  I guess I will eat breakfast when I am at home-knock knock. " z,can you get that?" laura said . ugh just as I am about to go home,someone has to come vist. SERIOUSLY?!. I open the door and-"fuck I was so worried about you,are you okay?" he hugged me,tom said,hugging me tightly. 

I place my head on his shoulder but not hugging him...I don't know how to behave around him anymore after yesterday. he then took my hands and placing it into his heart..."can you feel how worried ,I was?" he said. my heart started feeling weird again, and then I dropped my hands from his. "don't be silly ,dingus,i just decided to come to laura for a girl's night" I said walking towards the kitchen pretending to drink a cup of water ,which I ended up doing. "will you stop the act?,you good at acting on set but not off set" tom said watching me drink the water. "ha,whats wrong  about coming to Laura's for a girl's night?" I said stepping back because tom was coming forward to me . I couldn't go any backwards because that was the end. "oh what's wrong?,the fact you called me thrice ,messaged me twice ,left your keys on my counter, not active on social? that's not wrong?"Tom said slamming both his hands around me on the cupboard behind me. "you saw everything,didnt you?" tom said leaning his face towards to mines. shit.shit.shit. I guess tom is smart...I thought.

 "i-uhm what do you mean saw everything dingus?" I said lifting my eyebrows. "STOP LYING TO ME,TELL ME,U SAW OR NOT OKAY?ACTING IS NOT GOING TO GET YOU ANYWHERE FURTHER ESPECIALLY TO YOUR BEST FRIEND,WHY ARE YOU ACTING ALL WEIRD AS USUAL HUH?WHY? WHY DID YOU COME OVER? WHY DID YOU FEEL BAD WHEN YOU SAW ME AND NADIA...?WHY DID YOU  Text ME TWICE AND CALLED ME THRICE HUH? tom said yelling.

never in my life ,have I seen tom this angry.I could see his veins showing and the anger in his eyes showing. my heart felt like it has been torn like a piece of paper. I couldn't control my tears in my eyes  and surprisingly left them out to cry all over my cheeks.I could see him calming down a bit and then giving me a hug,brushing his hands through my hair. I pushed him away and then grabbed my keys on his fingers. I wiped my tears and slowly passing him until he grabbed my hand."z...look-" "save it for all I care,maby we should just gather our thoughts alone" I said removing my hand from his and passing laura  who gave me a small smile because she felt sorry,i waved and then closed the door behind,putting my hoodie over my head, so fans don't recognize me. slowly I cried and cried then heard my name. "z!" it was tom. I didn't want to talk to him because he is right why am I acting more weird than usual. im scared I will lose him and myself...but  It's for the best to be distant from him for a while as well as social media. so I walked faster and eventually ran away. I could feel the car coming, but I had no choice to tell some fans tom was in the car with a weird voice, so they don't recognize me, and so I could get away from him. it worked,he got distracted, but I could tell he was sad. i m sorry tom, but I don't know who I am anymore...okay I do ,let me not exaggerate, but  I don't think I know how I feel about you...anymore.

I don't know what's going on with me these days...I couldn't even sleep last night,Not only because of Laura's snoring but also because of what happened...and how dumb I was to leave my keys there. I clearly want thinking, but he did hurt me...why was he getting so angry like that,why did he react like that. I wiped my tears and walked away thinking if things are ever going to be the same after today...