Falling for my best friend {EDITING}

10.Tom

ugh mm i dont know how to respond to that text....its been bothering me for the whole 11 hours.. i quickly finished my breakfast,washed the plate and drank water. did she see the news..? she did belive it..? how did she react and how does she feel? oh GAWD TOM,stop acting this way. she is your best friend or at least was....ugh this needs to stop,we cant be not talking to each other...forever right? besides its my fault,i should apologise. i took my phone from the couch and went to z. my eyes widen to see something i never thought she would have done...block me? unfollowed me? okay i know abt the unfollow part but block..? i swallowed hard and felt my heart dropping slowly. she doesnt want me in her life any more? i knew i couldnt cry but i felt very emotional. NO tom,you are not going to lose her right? shes your everything. i thought to myself  and suddenly started blushing

*flashback*

4 years ago

"i will never forget you,till the day i die" z said staring at my eyes

i blushed then went close to her face "because i will always be by your side" i said attempting to kiss her.

z looked away and stood up feeling uncomfortable

"sorry tom,uhm ,this is getting awkward so i"ll leave"

i grabbed her arm and twisted her until she came super close to me this time.  "you cant leave like that z....atleast not without letting you know that.. and i reached her face..

she was blushing and  couldnt stop ..."tell..me what..?" she whispered. i kissed her...i started kissing her slowly then passionately. z stepped back. she looked confused and mad. "TOM??"Z said wiping her lips. i felt heartbroken already ...

i took a step close to her but she stood far and put her hand between us."sttop....dont ..come close to me.." she looked a bit embarrassed and emotional.

i knew that maby it was a right moment to tell her I'm in love with her since shes emotional. just here at the beach ,sunset meeting with the blue oceans reflecting the sky and just me and z across from each other. our eyes were locked in each other's eyes..and i couldnt help but fall for her all over again just in few seconds. "z...i..love you...im in love with you.. i have for a while now and i know its messed up since you and uh Trevor broke up but i cant help keep quiet z...its hard for me every single day to just pretend my feelings are invalid but i cant anymore z, i love you." i said giving her a small smirk and watching her tying her hair back because of the wind.

"tom...uh abt Trevor and i...uhm we got back together yesterday night and i really do appreciate your words and always have but i dont see us more than best friends,i prefer to stay like what we are ...., uhm of course your feelings are important ,it will always be but..can we just be best friends.?" she said looking at me with a happy and sad face .

i have never felt so shattered but this what happens if you fall for your best friend. one of them doesnt like u back and it really sucks. she does have a point ...of us not being more than best friends but hey its a progression..i guess...but its worth it,having the friendship than a relationship where you lose back. i hold my pain and sorrow behind my eyes and smile."of course we can be best friends"

*present *

i  smiled then felt bumped out. there is no way im losing you z,not now or never. i have to find a way to talk to you before the start of the spiderman shoot begins. i took my jacket and phone and left the house. i closed the door of the house entred the car and slowly left the house. i went on her social media."it would be internet crisis if i follow her again right? i said waiting for the  robot to turn green. i saw her updated picture, "needed a me time". i smiled" beautiful'. i turned off my phone and put it on the seat next to me and started driving as  the robot turned green.

i finally arrived .i hope she is here because i am not leaving until this is fixed. not going back . i dont want to lose you like i thought i did 4 years ago.i left the car and went to her doorstep. i took some breathing exercises because i felt so nervous . its been a while since we havent talked to each other. okay tom do it. KNOCK KNOCK. my heart couldnt stop beating. i close my eyes when the door open and then open slowly "look z-Laura?' i said surprised. she was happy to see me."TOMMY"she said giving me a short hug. "is z here?" i said scratching  the back of my head.  "Nope" sofia said loud from the kitchen. ugh shit i said clenching my hands into a fist."sorry tom, maby come later, we will give u call when she comes back" Laura said smiling. "thanks...do you know where i can find her? i said sounding a bit desperate which i am as you can see. "well uh no sorry" Laura said to me as she slowly starts to close the door. "hm thanks " i said walking disappointed in the car and left heading back home..."i need to see you z,i miss you so much...i am not ready for you to let me go just yet..especially when we need t fix things between us " i sighed then my phone rang. it was Nadia not z ,"yeah?" i said picking up the phone and here Nadia sobbing. "uhm can you meet me at mount sinai hospital..? she said . "ofc,i will be right there " i said sighing for the last time.

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