Falling for my best friend {EDITING}

40)The finale (part 2)

Z's Pov:

Why? Why do I feel this way? Why did I run away? why z? I thought everything was okay. I thought that I was moving on but why did it hurt me so bad when I saw tom with nadia and reuben together,happy. wait. why am I crying? Ah fuck,this shit again.  I wiped my tears,knowing that more of those came running out . I wanted to move on,i wanted to feel okay. To put this behind us.

But,i guess not.

I have so many questions for myself, but I don't have the right answers or proper answers either. I thought I would give everything a shot and then everything will be back to normal...I must have been really blind for having hope . Hope for us to be together  again...as one little family. You have no idea how much it hurt me,when I saw him and nadia kissing,yeah I'm not over that. I couldn't get it off my mind. Even when they were dancing together last night... That look tom gave nadia,is the exact look he gives me when we were together.

Yeah, I am okay with being just friends, but it hurts alot, and I can't emphasis it enough. We can't just forget about our breakup and pretend it was something that was mean't to be. Okay woah,Why am I suddenly acting this way when I was so motivated to move on ,have peace and be happy. I am being selfish and I was too. I guess I wanted something I lost ,again. When I heard  nadia explain to tom about reuben being their son,broke my heart completely. 

But there was nothing to do but pretend I was  happy with it and not bothered,I would simply smile and support them,And that's what I did. Pretend. Smile. Support. I wiped my tears,checking the time on my phone and leaning my head against the window. I took an Uber to drop my parents and Julien to the airport,I was emotional not because they were leaving but because they couldn't stop talking about Tom's "epic" proposal even tho I told them,how okay I was with it when julien asked if I was actually okay.

I wish I didn't have to lie to him. He understood me more than anyone I know, but I guess he wasn't the right person to talk to. I don't think crying will make me feel any better or make my lovely girl any healthier. I rubbed my belly,smiling.  I gave the Uber driver the money I was charged with and went inside my house.

Ofc,deja vu.

He is here.  why is it always like this. Why can't I come home and have none here? I seriously need to hide my spare key better. I hope my tears dried up because I can't do this again. Not in front of him. I put on a normal facial expression and drop my purse and phone on the table,removing my jacket and placing it by the kitchen counter. I knew why he was here so i got straight to the point.

"I went early,julien and them had to pack " I said turning around and watching him raise his eyebrows ,like I was lying. I wasn't really lying,i  did go with them to help them pack and drop their things in my house, but I used that as an excuse so that I could avoid watching tom proposed to nadia,again that was selfish,i know, but what I didn't know was that I was slowly hurting.

"At that exact moment,i took nadia from you and the others? They had to leave?" He said with his arms crossed. I rolled my eyes and sighed. "Yeah ,do we have a problem?" I said as i went to the kitchen and got myself a juice box in the fridge. I hissed,when I took a sip from  the coldness from the liquid. 

"I needed my best friend there z,to be there with me on the most important night of my life"He said calmly and went ahead to get himself a glass of water. I took a couple of more sips before I answered him. "I know, and I'm sorry, but I guess it was just a coincidence" I said,throwing the empty juice box in the bin.

"Why are you here?" I asked him,Not intentionally,it just blurted out from my mouth, but I did not regret it. He finished drinking water and placed the glass in the cupboard. I'm glad he remembers where to put it. "Our daughter." He said walking past me and to my bedroom,where i was stunned to see girl clothes and shoes on the bed and other plastics on the floor besides my bed,on the left side.