Falling for my best friend {EDITING}

36) Obey your mother and your what?

Zendaya's Pov:

it's been 5 weeks since the breakup and pregnant news. To be honest, I am feeling a bit better ,mostly because I am pregnant and going to be a mom soon but also because of my support systems. Laura,Sof and jacobs.  I couldn't have done it without them. Yeah,jacob knows about the baby, and he is pretty excited to be an "Uncle" so as the girls being the "aunt"

They are only upset that I forbid them from telling tom until I make a certain decision on whether I should or not. Yes, I know he is the father, and he has every right to be, and it would be 100% wrong to keep my child away from her or his father. Trust me,i know and it's crazy. It's a decision where I shouldn't be selfish, and I have come to a decision.

I will tell him. My child needs his/her father in their life too,I guess it would be selfish if I had to keep them away from their father and to keep tom away from his child. At first, I did not want him to be involved in my child's life and my life because of his actions and the fucking...announcement he made and all. I guess I was busy being selfish without knowing the small little one doesn't deserve to be punished because of what we (Tom and I) have been through.

Yes,I have done alot of thinking and decision and this might just be the way to make things less bad than it already is.  I came from the doctor with the three,laura ,sof and jacobs and said my goodbye as they drove off after dropping me at my door . I was there for a checkup and as long as I am  eating all my healthy food ,then the baby is going to be healthy like he/she already is. 

Oh, and the doctor said,in two days ,I will know about the gender, and I am so excited,but first I need to let tom know all about this. It's really not going to be easy for me to call him and ask him to come over because I have something that will change our lives forever. I sigh, I will take a shower,have a snack then call him.  I am so tired,i thought as I opened the door and closed it as soon as I went in the house. 

As I threw the keys on the table,i turn around in shock to see tom in front of me... I nearly fell but he caught me. I didn't know how to act or feel,I was just in shock. It felt like I accidentally touched the wet wire and got electrically shocked. After some few shocking awkward seconds,he let go of me.

I couldn't help but notice how calm he looked,while I felt scared for some reason. That night when things ended came flashing back in my mind as I step backwards. "Uhm,what are you doing here?" I said and left out a dry cough. "So I am really going to be a dad,huh" He smiled. Fuck,i miss that smile,it warms my heart . Wait what? I snapped into reality. How does he know...? laura. It has to be her. I should have seen this coming.

I walked past him ignoring what he said and grabbed a lunch bar by the counter. He followed me. "hey,i come in peace,alr?" he said, and I couldn't help and laughed when I turned around to face him.  "You're not a hero" I said with a light tone after laughing. I don't regret laughing,actually. It feels weird and natural to talk like this again with him. It wasn't awkward,it was just weird. I could see the big smile and chuckle on his face.

He chuckled and grabbed the other lunch bar on the counter. "I might not be one, but I will be one to my child,that's if I am a dad" He said slowly removing the lunch bar wrapper. I just smiled at him while chewing. "So who told you?" I asked as I took another good bite and watched him swallowing a piece of the lunch bar chocolate. "Laura"  He said,trying to talk with the bar in his mouth. I knew it. I knew it was laura. "EW TOM, EAT WITH UR MOUTH CLOSED" I said pushing him away as I threw the lunch bar plastic in the dustbin. He just laughed and threw the empty lunch bar plastic in the bin.

We walked to the living room and sat down. Yeah,next to each other.  It was quiet until I broke the silence . "yeah uhm you're going to be a dad, and I am going to be a mom,at first I refused to tell you, but then I realized that I would make a big mistake and damage if I chose not to tell you anything about our child.it was tough tom, so i-i- uh kinda made that decision when I was still hurt over the things that had come to an end, but it was selfish of me, I also forbid  jacobs,laura and sof from telling you anything or posting anything. As well as my family,they are so excited and happy,but it didn't feel right when i told everyone else but you" I said with tears dropping from my eyes watching tom's smile turn into sadness.

It hurt me to see him like that. It really did. I don't know how many pieces broke my heart but i know that it couldn't be as much as tom right now.  "So you are not pregnant r-recently?" Tom asked in a sad tone,he couldn't even look at me in the eye. "no...not really,if that's what Laura told you then-Tom interrupted me and stood up,eyes red and staring at me eye to eye. "Then she was trying to not make me feel bad?, What the fuck z, i get the rethinking decision  but that was fucking selfish, you told everyone but me because you were hurt? you told my best friend not to tell me something as big as this? You told your family,best friends and not my family and me? Because of our stupid breakup?" He said so harshly that made me stand up with tears in my eyes as well.

When he put it that way,it does sound so horrible and wrong. "I know tom,i do, and I am so fucking sorry,i-i-i shouldn't have done or said that but how else was I supposed to think when I was hurt that the best friend and guy I fell in love with cheated on me with his ex-girlfriend? Hm? how? I don't blame you for being sad and angry tom, but I need you to see from my view too. Our breakup was not stupid,it tormented me for several weeks, and it still does. When I learned that I was pregnant ,it was the only good thing that made me smile in weeks. Even with the reckless thoughts I made, I was happy that having a baby with you was so worth it. The only good thing that came from our relationship,is our little kiddo,tom" I said rubbing my tummy and wiping my tears with the other hand.

Tom came closer and gave me a hug. I needed this so much,everything was hurting and all I did was bottled it up until today,i feel relieved after saying everything, but I felt so alone and sad. I felt horrible for having that thought of hiding my child from their father. It was a long hug,with tom rubbing my back and giving me a kiss on my forehead,each time I cried silently. "I still love you z, but I think we can focus on the child together just as friends,right?" He said calmly and still wrapped me in his arms. I nodded ,I definitely agree. Friends would be okay until the next step. 

Once we let go of each other,he wiped my tears and I wiped his. We were so close to each other that he gave me a small kiss and I didn't stop it,i just smiled after he did that. We sat down, and he wrapped his arm around me. "it's okay now,okay? I'm going to stay with you from now on" He said rubbing my hands. I smiled and nodded. "You mean with us" I said as I look at him and my belly. He kissed my forehead and touch my belly. "I will bring a blanket and snacks for us to watch a movie? okay?" Tom said as he let go of me and went to the kitchen first. While I made an announcement that would break the internet.

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