Firefly [Levi x Suicidal Reader]

Chapter 5

'Where am I?' I asked. My vision was blurred. I noticed that I layed in a bed. Was I dreaming? No. This doesn't smell like my bed, it smelled like disinfectants. That was when I realized that my left arm was fully bandaged. I tried to look around me, but all I could see was a silhouette sitting on the windowsill.

'You're at the schools infirmary. You didn't eat for 2 days straight and lost a lot of blood.'

I heard a voice echoing from the window. I tried to stay up, but I was way too weak to move.

'Stay in bed!'

Finaly I could see that it was Levi who talked to me.

'Levi? What are you doing here?'

'Tsk, idiot I'm the one who found you collapsed on the ground, after you interrupted my practice.'

He stood up and went beside the bed I layed in. His fingers moved to my arm when he gently grabbed my wrist. I felt the cold touch of his hand. It helps me to cope with the pain I felt because of the cuts in my arm that heated up my body.

'I told you not to do it again, how can you be this stupid?' he said with the same emotionless look he always has.

I  remain silent. I thought that he said it because he just wanted to be polite, but maybe he really cares.

No, why should he care? This is just something I want to make up in my head, so I feel a bit better, but the truth is that he is still a stranger to me.

'I need to go, I just waited till you wake up, but I have more important things to do as you might know.'

On his way to the door he suddenly stopped.

'Oh, and I told the nurse that you have a new cat which is still very aggressive. Just if she asks you.'

Wondering about his actions, I wanted to asked him why he helped me, but before I could open my mouth, he left the infirmary.

After I got released I walked my way home. It was already dark outside because they wanted me to stay this long, so I went to my favorite place: a small lake that is hidden behind some willow trees. I sat down on the bank and watched my reflection in the silent water. There was barely movement in the water, but then I took a step into it. The cold water reached to my knees, as I walked in deeper and deeper. I wished I could just drown, but do I have the courage to do it? I guess it is impossible to drown yourself, just like it is impossible to strangle yourself, because your hands will automatically move away from your throat. I don't want to go home now. My parents will be there, and I want to be all by myself, I want to enjoy tho cold water around my body. I dived down and tried to stay underwater till I'm dead, but after a minute I just couldn't handle it and swim up to the surface. A deep inhale was the first thing I did but then my tears started to stream down my face. I wasn't crying, I just felt empty and I hoped that the cold water could stop the numbness, but it didn't.
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A/N: Sorry for the short chapter, I had a lot to do this week but I hope you like it so far c: