Wanted by both (lokixy/n) (thorxy/n)

Chapter 11

A/N: HOLY FRICKING HOTBALLS WE REACHED 100 READERS. IM SO GODDAMN HAPPY EEEEEEEEEEEE

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You walked towards your car. Dazed and confused. What the hell just happened?

It was hot and heavy and the passion. My god, the passion was amazing. You never felt this way with your Ex. He just rubbed you dry until you 'came'.

This feeling you got. It was electrifying. The jolts of pure joy running through your body. You never wanted it to stop. Your very first orgasm.

Then it happened. This awful feeling creeping up on you. Guilt. Betrayal. You cheated on Thor. The one person who would never do anything to hurt you. But then again, you guys weren't official. You were just in a dating phase. And besides, you haven't even talked about exclusivity. Why were you even feeling guilty about this?

You bumped against your car. With all the rambling thoughts in your head you weren't paying any attention to the environment.

"Ouch"

You hop in the car and managed to get home safely, only getting distracted for like 392929 times.

Shit.

How were you gonna tell Tori about all this. Will you even tell her? You've known here for so long and still you didn't completely trust her. What if she will judge you? Or what if she would tell this secret to someone else.

No. You were not going to tell her about this. At least, not yet.

This was something big for you. You were only sexually active with Alexander and even that was only for 3 times. And all you did was some oral sex anyway.

Well, it's not like you actually had sex with Loki. It was just.... different. It felt so secretive and you loved it.

Since it wasn't 20:00 yet, you decided to take a warm soft bath  and watched your favourite show for the 4828292th time. It wasn't as if you didn't like any other show, it's just that this one gave you comfort. It made you laugh in some darker times and even though it was a little cheesy, you still loved it.

You got out of the bath when the water lost it's warmth and dried yourself of with an rundown towel that kinda hurt, but you didn't have enough money or time to buy new ones. Yes the pay as Loki's assistant is great, but you live in the big city. The rent already takes half of your paycheque and a quarter of it goes to the groceries. So you didn't mind the old towels. You will buy new ones eventually... just not right now.

You ate some light dinner, because you knew Tori would want to order some pizza and icecream anyway.

20:03

*Knock knock*

"Come iiinn!" You yelled from the couch.

The door opens to reveal Tori standing there with a big grin.

"So?? How was he?"

Shit. Did she already know about Loki? How? No this can't be—

"How was the kiss with the blonde godlike human?"

Ahh. She meant Thor.

"Mhm"

"Mhm?! As in he was bad? Or as in he was hella good?"

"Maybe"

"Girl you are giving me absolutely nothing. Tell me!"

"Okay okay, it was.. good. He was so sweet and gentle."

"Did y'all fuck after?"

"Tori!," you throw a pillow at her " no, we did not."

"Haahahaah, sorry sorry!" giggled Tori.

Her question made you think of Loki. Would he be thinking about you too? Or were you just some piece of meat that happened to be nearby? Did he even care about you? Thor does. You could tell that the man fell for you just by looking at his eyes. And the kiss obviously.

"You're putting your serious face on. Did something happen?"

Ah. You really need to get a grip on yourself. Stop thinking about Loki. He's just your boss. Who fingerfucked you this lovely afternoon. Nothing more. He probably did that like a thousand times before you with other girls. You weren't special to him. Just one of his many side pieces.

"Nothing. Its just my job." you managed to get that small lie out.

"Ohh, lemme guess, Loki? Who's lokwey a gigantic dickbag?"

You laughed at her remark.

"Yeah. I don't know if I should continue working there. I could get a job down by the cafe, they keel offering it to me everytime I come in."

"Girl, are you stupid? This job pays amazing! Much better than making coffee."

"Fair point. I just don't know it anymore."

Tori scoots closer to you and wraps her arms around you to give you a mamabear hug. You accept and return the hug.

"Thank you, I needed that."

"I know (n/n), I know"

You watched an old chick flick that made you both feel nostalgic, which made you both cry and resulted in many hugs and some more icecream. After the movie ended you both passed out on the couch, still cuddling.