my drug (oitnb//nicky nichols)

chapter 2

after dinner was over we go back to our bunks, mine was under Nicky's. i was then called to Mr.Healys office since he was my counselor, i was given my job assignment witch was electrical.
"i'm sorry but i don't know anything about electrical, there isn't anywhere else i could work?" i said nervously

"i'm afraid not, electrical is the last free place so i'm afraid you'll be making 11 cents an hour"

"11 cents? are you kidding me? this is totally unfair!"

"i suggest you leave my office before i have you sent to shu for disobeying staff"

"what?! are you joking? this is unbelievable." i stand up and i leave his office upset and on the verge of crying, possibly being sent to solitary for something this stupid was ridiculous.

I didn't want to risk getting in trouble on my first day in prison. I ended up going back to the bunks and i sat in my bed.

"hey kid, what's wrong? Your upset" Nicky got down from her bed and she sat next to me.

"i told Healy i didn't want to work in electrical and he said if i refused i'd go to solitary"

"well, you've got me and chapman in electrical so you'll know us, they pay us horribly but it's something."

"well i guess since your there it won't be so bad. but honestly, 11 cents an hour is ridiculous."

Nicky nodded and she put her arm around my shoulder, i rested my head onto her shoulder and i smiled a bit. I barley even knew Nicky but she made me feel safe and i liked that, she even smelled good.

"and your definitely gonna cry tonight, the first night is always rough" Nicky looked down at me a bit sadly but her facial expressions were soft.

"Nicky? why are you being so kind to me? You don't seem like the type to be so welcoming" i looked up at Nicky as i talked

"because your not gonna survive in here. Your pretty and vulnerable. i'm just looking out for you"

"well thanks. i appreciate it Nichols. thank you for being so nice to me"

"of course kid"

"what time is lights out?"

"usually 10:30 but tonight is movie night so whenever the movie is over. it starts at 9 if you wanted to go"

"movies aren't really my thing but thanks Nicky. i'm probably just gonna grab a shower and head to bed"

"your not gonna want to take a shower without shower shoes, do you have some?"

"yes, lorna ended up giving me a spare pair of hers and they fit perfectly."

"grab your stuff, i'll show you where our assigned bathroom is."

I did what Nicky said and she brang me to our assigned bathroom. the bathroom was empty so the stalls were empty, it was nice having some privacy, the curtains were disgusting and so was everything else in the bathroom. Nicky sat on the bench outside of the showers, i had my towel and a spare change of clothes on the bench next to Nicky, i had started the shower and i gave it time to warm up while i undressed myself. i set my dirty uniform on the bench and i put on my shower shoes, i got in the shower and i closed the curtains and i washed my body and my hair, i closed my eyes as i stood under the water. The water felt nice on my skin, it wasn't to harsh but the water pressure wasn't terrible. Why was Nicky waiting for me outside of the stall? I found it comforting in some way, it was like she wanted to make sure i was comfortable, i found it pleasing.

After a few minutes i had finished showering so i turned off the water.

"Nicky close your eyes" i giggled and i opened the curtain

"oh fine, it's not like your gonna get much privacy in here anyways" she listened and closed her eyes as i wrapped myself in the towel i was given when i first got here.

I wrapped myself in my towel and i dried myself off, i got dressed in a pair of thick grey cotton shorts and a white tank top with a grey hoodie.

"okay nicky, you can look now"

nicky opened her eyes

"damn i missed the show" she chuckled

I was drying my hair with the towel and i sat next to nicky, she put her arm over my shoulders and rested my head on her shoulder. I smiled and i sat up again.

"did i do something wrong?" Nicky looked at me confused

"no. i just..nothing, i'm gonna go back to the bunks. do you know when we are getting assigned to the dorms?"

"tomorrow. i'll see you later?"

"of course nicky"

I grabbed my damp towel and my shower caddy and i went back to the bunks, i put the towel in my shower bag and i got into my bed, i felt bad for leaving nicky in the bathroom but i couldn't get past the thought that i was in prison.The thought of being in here made my stomach turn and i didn't want to be near anyone and i didn't want to be comforted, i just wanted to be alone. I wish i had told Nicky before just leaving her. I felt nauseous, my stomach hurt and i had a horrible headache, i guess it's just from being so nervous.

Nicky had come back into the bunks since the movie was about to end, my face was pale, i was about to vomit and i was in tears. I quickly wiped my face when i saw nicky, i didn't want her to know i was crying. It was to late, she had already seen me. She got a worried look on her face and she sat next to me.

"woah kid, come here it's okay. i told you the first night was rough" She started to pat my back

"i'm gonna vomit" i covered my mouth and i closed my eyes

"vomit? oh jeez let's get you to the bathroom"

She helped me up and brang me to the bathroom, she cleaned the seat with toilet paper she had brang with her and i immediately started throwing up in the toilet. I was also crying because it was just natural for me to cry when i was vomiting.

After about an hour we both went back to our bunks, she had informed me that we were getting assigned the next day so that was nice.