my drug (oitnb//nicky nichols)

chapter 5

We got to electrical, Nicky's hair was mostly dry by that time. I always liked her crazy hair, it's soft and it just looks nice, it suits her.

Luschek was sitting at his desk in the workshop when we entered, he was busy messing with somthing in his desk drawer.

"what the hell Nichols? your late...and so are you new girl"

Nicky nodded as she went to sit, i followed her. She made one of those sarcastic surprised faces she does, i liked them.

"Carter and Nichols go fix the dryer in laundry, it's broken" Luschek said

"let's go ivy."

Nicky took 2 belts and handed one to me. I took it and put it around my waist and we headed to the laundry room where alex and the meth heads worked. It was just Alex working today, the meth heads were probably high somewhere in the prison causing trouble.

We arrived in the laundry room to get to work.

"hey there, heard you had a broken appliance that needed fixing...ma'am " Nicky looked at alex "real rusty old thing that needs fixing?"

"oh yeah?" Alex says

"yeah" says nicky

"well my husband isn't home and he's got the checkbook, maybe there's some other way i could pay you" Alex said in a weird accent and laughed

"maybe if i stick my dick in your mouth it might help me relax" nicky winked

"god, no thanks" said alex

"what? to hetero?" Nicky looked around "okay. how about "wrench in your twat"?

"ok well the broken one's over there, and her name is myra so you can stick your wrench in her twat" Alex said before going back to folding laundry

Nicky snickered, it was funny.

That's how Nicky and Alex played around, i thought it was funny, it's nice to have a friend to joke around with in this depressing stupid place.

Me and Nicky went over to the broken dryer to see what the damage was.

"Nicky? do you have any idea on how to fix this?"

"no but just make it look like your doing something."

"sure, um okay."

I got up and i walked around the corner, i think i was starting to have a panic attack or something. I didn't feel well but it wasn't a sickness it was just guilt, for some reason i felt guilty and i didn't know why. How was i supposed to fix a dryer? and for 12 cents and hour, are you fucking kidding me?

Nicky noticed i was gone so she looked and found me, i was standing against the wall with my hands on my knees, breathing heavily. Nicky had a worried look on her face and she rubbed my hands

"hey kid, come on. what's wrong?"

I shook my head.

"no..no i'm okay..i'm okay.."

I stood up straight and moved my hair from my face.

"let's fix a dryer, come on" I looked at Nicky

She nodded at me with a sympathetic, sad look on her face "sure kid. let's go fix this dryer"

I thought to myself. Why now? Why did i need to have a freak out, now? Why not later? i don't want her to feel bad for me or to feel the need to take care of me. Jeez i hate prison.

Nicky pulled me in for hug, me being me..i can't say no to hug so i hugged her back and nuzzled my head against her shoulder.

"Nicky your hair is still damp"

She nodded and let go of me

"Thanks for the hug nicky" I smiled a bit before trying to work on the dryer

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After our work is done we were sent back to our cubes, it was around 4:10 so we still had about 2 hours until dinner, i was in the bathroom showering since i didn't take one today yet.

I washed my body and my hair, it was nice since it wasn't crowded, they were on the bathroom side with the stalls and not the showers. It was nice having privacy, there's not much in this place.

Twitters not nothing on prison.

Once i finished my hot shower i turned off the water and i grabbed my towel from the side, i wrapped it around my body and i opened the curtain. I dried off and i changed into a long sleeve grey shirt and sweatpants that are given to you if you don't want to wear a gown to bed. I put my shower shoes back on and i brushed my teeth in the sink as i was drying my hair.

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I got my food from the line, it was dinner time. Tonight we had noodles and broccoli, weird combo. it wasn't that bad.

I sat at the table where nicky and her friends sit. The tall dark haired lesbian with glasses, the tall blonde lesbian and the short Italian inmate that wears bright red lipstick. I loved their friendship, it was like they were a real family and not a prison family. Boo didn't sit with us, she sat elsewhere but she's still considered part of the family, i'm fairly new so i don't think i'm considered family but it's nice to be friends with nicky.

Nicky never really ate much, i guess she didn't like her moms cooking but it wasn't that great anyways, It's prison. She only ate the broccoli off of her plate seeing as the noodles were half cooked and cold.

Dinner was pretty quiet tonight, not sure why. Nicky seemed to be in a good mood earlier but maybe it was the sad look on the Italians face and nobody wanted to watch her have an outburst.

I looked at lorna, i felt bad for her. She looked so sad and innocent.

"lorna? what's wrong?" i asked

"oh it's just Christopher, he hasn't been taking my calls lately" Lorna replied, sticking her fork in her noodles while looking down at her plate.

"i'm sorry, you can always try again later, maybe he's just busy"

"yeah maybe"

I looked over at nicky who seemed to be having a hard time keeping her eyes open. Shit, she's using again.

"nichols?" i looked at her

"yeah? what's up poison ivy?" Nicky lifted her head up to look at me

"Can we talk? please" i asked her

"yeah sure...talk.."

"privately?"

Nicky got up from the table and walked outside of the cafeteria to where there were no guard's to hear our conversation.

"nicky....your using again. i thought you were sober"

"i'm an addict, we've all had our slip ups"

"nicky this is serious. come on, you need to get clean"

"i'm done with people trying to get me clean or saying i need to get clean! alright?! shit" Nicky was obviously upset now, she stormed off

I felt horrible but i i don't like seeing her like this. I feel horrible watching her tear her life apart and ruin it. And i wanna help her get better but it doesn't seem like she wants help.

It gonna be hard getting her clean but i'm gonna keep trying until she stays clean. I'm gonna help.

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LAST UPDATE 10-18-21
i hope you enjoy the chapter :))