i had just finished my shift in electrical, i was walking back to my cube, obviously exhausted. i rubbed my eyes as i walked, trying to stay awake. Once i got to my cube and plopped down on my bed and i closed my eyes, falling asleep almost instantly. it wasn't much later when nicky snuck up on me and scared me.
"oh fuck!" i woke up and jumped. "i was sleeping, it's only been like 15 minutes. i'm so tired"
"i missed ya" she said and sat down on the bed
"we literally just saw eachother. i wanna go back to sleep"
"oh come on. i'm bored and your my girlfriend. i wanna have sex."
"nicky i'm really not in the mood to have sex"
"really ivy? it's been like 2 months."
"maybe later. i'm just really tired" i layed back down and shut my eyes, once again falling asleep.
nicky stayed sitting in my bed, she took a book from off of my cabinet and started reading it to occupy her mind. the fact that i said no really seemed to bother her, i don't get why it was such a big deal i rejected her offer to have sex. i mean yeah, i know sex is one of her favorite things but she should respect my decision.
don't get me wrong, i like sex a lot to but i just haven't been in the mood for it. i think it's just stress but my stomach has been hurting for weeks, along with my head and i just feel sick.
maybe it's just the guilt. i promised her i wouldn't use and i'd stay clean but i relapsed.
Nicky got up after a few hours and walked over to reds cube while i was still asleep.
"ma? i think i upset ivy" nicky said, a bit worried
red looked over at her daughter "well why's that?"
"because she won't have sex with me and it's been months"
"just give it time. she's just not in the mood"
"maybe it's the drugs. but i guess your right."
nicky left reds cube and she sat in the rec room playing uno with lorna and alex
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I shot up in the bathroom stall and i flushed the toilet before leaving the stall. Nicky was washing her hands in the sink right infront of me.
fuck. i really didn't want to see her right now.
she looked infront of her in the mirror, seeing my face in the reflection
"hey baby." nicky smiled and turned off the sink and she spun around to face me
"hi nichols." i turned on the water and i rinsed my hands
she hugged my waist from behind and slid a hand into my khakis
"nicky i've already told you..fuck.. i wasn't in the mood" i turned around to face her and i took her hand out of my pants
"i'm sorry i'm sorry, i just wanna make you feel good. just let me try, okay? if you don't like it then i'll stop"
"fine. but not out here" i took her hand and walked into a stall with her
"thank you." she slid her hand back into my khakis and began to please me
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"fuck i liked that." i kissed her and i fixed my pants, walking out of the stall.
"see, i told you" she washed her hands
"yeah your always right."
i leave the bathroom and i go back to my cube, i sit in my bed thinking about what had happened. i know it was sex but it felt weird. i felt weird.
it didn't feel right. i know she's my girlfriend, yes i wanted to have sex with her but it still just felt odd.
sex was weird.
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my drug (oitnb//nicky nichols)
Fanfictionivy is sentenced 5 years to litchfeild's minimum security women's prison for armed robbery, during her stay she meets a crazy haired girl named nicky nichols. this is their story (this is still being worked on)
