Diamond is a normal working woman that enjoys every moment of her life ... until she got the opportunity to work with Chris evans. After years of working for chris her life changed for her tremendously giving her a shot at fame. How does chris play...
I woke up feeling a type of euphoric feeling.... A feeling I haven't felt in a while. My mind was blank in the moment not really feeling any emotion. I laid in my bed tangled in the covers, sun shining slightly through the blinds from the big window in my room, i rolled over to stretch hitting something big Laying right underneath me.
"What the hell?!" I said instantly opening my eyes. I see chris laying beside me fast asleep and half naked.
Everything hit me all over again. Our night at the club... then everything after that.. god. I didn't know weather to be angry at myself for letting chris back into my life that easy or proud that im finally moving on.
"You know its not polite to stare" i heard chris say knocking me out of my trance
"Sorry umm... i was just thinking about something"
" care to share?" He asked
" nah its nothing " i said giving him a smile and getting up to grab my robe and make my way to my bathroom.
While Chris stayed Laying in the bed . I looked at myself in the mirror sighing deeply. The guilt started kicking my ass instantly i shouldn't have let Chris in that easy. We haven't talked in years and the way we left things off with each did not make this moment feel any better.
"Diamond I know its been a minute but i can tell when somethings wrong with you" chris said now leaning in the door way.
"I uh.. i think last night was a mistake.." i said looking down at the sink..
"The way things happened between you and i back then was great But you let all these years go by and you never once reached out and when I tried you straight up ignored me." I said .
" we may have know each other once upon a spell... but with everything ive been through you cant say you know me when your part of the reason why I changed & how i am today." I said looking towards him.
Chris just sighed and looked at me.
"Diamond i understand what it feels li-"
I cut him off frustrated... "NO... chris you dont know what it feels like to be left by someone you shared sooo much time and effort with just to turn around and be manipulated and embarrassed by someone else you hoped would be different." I said tearing up.
"Ive spent to much of my life trying to please everyone else around me and letting people take advantage of my kindness and shit but im done... so this little... whatever you wanna call it is not your free pass to think that you can come back into my life so easy."
I tried to walk past chris but he grabbed my by my arm.
" i will say this over and over again that im sorry. Im not letting you get away from me this time. If i have to go through this whole resentment stage and you being mad at me go ahead... but im not going anywhere." Chris said holding my arms looking down at me.
I just stared up at chris as it was silent between the two of us....
"I think you should just go right now... i need some time to myself " i said dismissing him.
He kept looking at me then he walked away beginning to put his clothes on. Before he left he kissed me on my forehead then giving me a pleading look.
After chris left for the rest of the day i just sat around the house listening to music and relaxing. I thought about what happened earlier between me and chris but I decided i wasn't going to dwell over it. Im a grown woman that made a mistake... oh well shit just happens . I had other things to think about like my interview with jimmy fallon in 2 days and my shoot for fenty tomorrow . So work was back on my mind. I decided to call ari since I didn't talk to her about what happened. I called her as the phone rung twice before she picked up.
" yall had sex didn't yall?!" She said excitedly
"Well damn , hello to you too, im doing fine how about yourself ?" I said sarcastically.
"Girl cut the chit chat did yall ??" She asked again making me laugh.
"Maybe... maybe not"
"Yall did i can hear the glow in your voice " she said making me laugh
"How can you- you know what never mind " i said as we both started laughing.
I ended up telling ari the whole story and explained to her why me and chris weren't gonna take that any farther and she completely understood where i was coming from.
After we got off the phone I started playing my music again as "karma, by summer walker" started playing. I just decided to clean because that really does clear my mind of anything so i changed and put something lazy on
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I started with the kitchen practically deep cleaning and loosing my self in the background music. This really was my way of forgetting everything goin on in life , cleaning and music. I sung along to every song that shuffled through my playlist. It was a bonus that I actually can sing so it feels like im really in a concert. As i made my way to the living room the box full of stuff that was left of brads was shoved underneath my coffee table. I looked at it and just shook my head laughing as it didn't even phase me. Sorry by beyonce started playing as i got a crazy idea.
I picked the box up grabbing my matches and lighter fluid going to my backyard. On my way to the back door i slid on something almost about to break my damn neck. It was a white tank which i just figured it was Chris's so i just picked it up and threw it in the box as well.
" middle fingers up , put them hands high , Wave it in his face , tell him boy BYE!"
I set the box down on the concrete and lit the match , I flipped off the middle finger at box and then flicked the match in the box watching it start to flame.
" now you wanna say you sorry Now you wanna call me cryin, Now you gotta see me wildin "
I started to sing along. Thank god my yard is hella private or else my neighbors would probably think im a psychopath. " and i dont feel bad about , thats exactly what you get so stop interrupting my grinding" I walked back into my house dancing , just letting the box burn as I continued to sing the rest of the song pouring my a glass of wine and sitting on the couch.
The whole day went by and i was now getting ready to call it a night as i was laying in bed. I guess you could say my "self care" day took a turn left but honestly i feel so much better. My phone started to vibrate as I looked at it seeing chris was calling me. I contemplated on answering but i just ignored it putting my phone on do not disturb. I knew i wasn't just gonna leave chris in the dust like that but right now i just dont want to talk about anything with him.
