Date Night Stories

Loss

She was my everything. She still is. I thought to myself.

I look out the window as I call her phone, the line kept ringing but she wasn't answering. My anxiety was getting worse as time passes. I think about our argument this morning, it was barely an argument, she just left the house and headed to work, muttering the words goodbye and I love you before she closed the door behind her.

I cleaned up after myself and got myself ready for work, I took a quick shower and ran out the door as soon as I grabbed all my things.

Work was decent and I worked overtime again, the pay was good but I'm definitely overworked. My whole body hurts everyday and I work at least 11 to 12 hours daily. I'm lucky if I have my weekends free. I'm exhausted and I am just drained. When I get home, I just want to relax and not think about everything but the first chance she gets, she just keeps bringing up problems and issues. We are constantly bickering and she's getting on my nerves day after day.

After work, we usually just go our separate ways and she does her thing while I do mine. I'm exhausted being with her. I make my own supper and she eats whenever.

I'll relax for the rest of the evening and we head to bed together, by then she's going to ask for time together and bring up some more issues and the bickering starts again right before bed. I don't understand why she keeps bringing up problems right as we fall asleep. On top of that, she cries every single day. How does a person cry so much?

Everyday is the same, we talk in the morning before work and we text each other throughout the day, after work I give her a call and our routine repeats itself. I'm very tired and I recently moved to this new state to find a better job and it has been very challenging.

Luckily, I have my siblings here and I spend time with them every weekend and we have brunch or supper together. They helped me a lot and I'm very thankful for them. This relationship had been draining and she keeps being cryptic about everything, it's very frustrating. So it really helps to have others take my mind off of her. But I think about her constantly.

She doesn't know that. She doesn't know how much sleep I lose trying to stay up to talk to her and it's so annoying when she would call and hang up, just to call again. She doesn't appreciate a single thing I do and it makes me upset. On top of that, nothing I have to say seem to matter to her either. It's like I'm talking to a wall.

I still hold her at night and I still love her. She's still the woman I love and it's been hard dealing with everything going on. I hope she understands me and I hope she knows what she's gonna miss out on if she keeps doing this. It isn't easy working almost half of the day with barely 4 to 5 hours of sleep.

Finally after almost 12 hours of not hearing from her, I look up from where I was on our couch and she came in the door after work, she greeted me and headed straight to the bedroom. She went to bed early and I just let her be, I carried on with my evening and grabbed something quick from the kitchen. I feel upset with her because how can she not text me all day when I know she's always on that damn phone of hers.

It was almost midnight and I soon headed to bed, she was fast asleep and I climbed into bed with her and I drifted off. Another week was over and I finally have days off.

When I woke up, she was in bed, waiting for me to wake up. She asked if we could spend some time together and it made me frustrated because we just slept 9 whole hours together and she decided to head to bed early when she could have spent the evening with me and now she wants more time together. I got up and she stayed in bed all morning, I made myself something to eat and soon got a call from my siblings.

Eventually, I left and we spent the weekend together and I'm just happy to be away for a while and that's that...