Bestfriends Brother | Rafe Cameron X Reader

Summer

Today was my favourite day of the year , the day where the sun becomes brighter , the day my hair becomes sun bleached , the day where my skin becomes sun kissed , the day that every teenager gets excited for .... but I was no longer excited for summer this year , I was more worried . Worried of my body in a bikini , worried people would see my cuts , worried I'll be fat shamed , worried I'll be used or worried I'll loose people for the way my body looks . My favourite day of the year was ruined , 3 months of this year is ruined because I can't stop my Conscience from convincing me I'm something I'm not , unless I am what my conscience is telling me ...

"Get out of bed y/n it's the first day of summer remember , your favourite day " my mum softly spoke while still trying to make sure these words wake me . " where's Barry , I need to ask him something " I asked " why do you always need Barry honey , I'm here to talk ! " My mum has always hated how I've always chose Barry over her , but Barry always has the answers to my problems and my mum just try's to get a professional to help. "it's more of a sibling thing , I promise to come to you when it's not okay " my mum was definitely sick of hearing this but I can't tell her what's really happening to me ." well remember your fathers coming to pick you up in a few hours , and I think he said your going to the Cameron's later " I hated going to the Cameron's . Don't get me wrong I love the Cameron's , Sarah's my best friend but ever since I started becoming more insecure I have hated seeing her brother .

I've always had a thing for Rafe ever since I was little , we practically grew up together but recently my feelings for him have become stronger and I just get so self conscious around him , I always feel like he's going to judge me even tho he would never do such a thing. He's just perfect ... his looks , his personality, his hobby's , him.

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(Btw that's me time skipping)

" long time no see " I rolled my eyes " dad I saw you a week ago " my dad always liked to joke around but for some reason recently I've been shutting his jokes down and I don't know why , I can't control myself and I always feel so bad about it " we're going to Wards in about an hour so please start getting ready as soon as possible sweetie " he said while trying to find something " is this what your looking for " he came rushing over to me snatching his phone out of my hand " um y/n ... what's that on your jumper ?" " what are your talking about " I looked down at my arm and saw blood on my sleeve " oh that " I pointed to the blood " I was just painting in this jumper with Kie yesterday and I must of gotten some paint on my sleeve " he nodded but I could tell he didn't quite believe what just came out of my mouth.

I went to my room and put on a grey long sleeve crop , denim shorts and my vans. I threw on some light makeup , brushed through my hair and sprayed My favourite perfume . *knock* " yes dad " I yelled slightly , the door opened " Ward said he's already home and we can pop by now , so I was just checking if you were ready to leave " he said with a smile " yep all ready "

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I was looking down at my phone messaging Barry about my day and what I was doing when I heard my dad speak " wasn't expecting you to be answering the door Rafe " I popped my head up , there he stood looking down at me with a bright big smile " well here I am , come in " my dad walked in going towards ward and rose , I followed him Before feeling a tug at my arm " ouch " his eyes popped " sorry , I didn't mean to hurt you y/n " it then hit me , I realised why it hurt ... my mind was going a million miles , I was worried he knew " anyway can I talk to yo- " he didn't even get to finish his sentence " Y/N!!! " my bestfriend screamed " I haven't seen you in like forever y/n , where the hell have you been" she smiled " well for starters I was at my mums , so I was hanging out with the pogues and your always hanging at kook parties " I laughed , she then dragged me to her room . " y/n I need to tell you something , but you can not tell him I told you " she looked serious " tell who and I won't " I asked " Rafe " she whispered " rafe ? "
"Yes " she shot back " ok go on " " so I was talking to topper the other day like usual and he randomly brought you up and told me that rafe has been talking about you non stop " I broke out laughing " he would never talk about me , that's crazy "

Why would he be talking about me I wondered. Was it for a good reason at least ? I left her room shortly after and went to the bathroom making sure I looked good for him . Checking my sleeves were all the way down , my shirt covered my skin as much as it could and making sure I plastered on my fake smile.

*beep* I looked down at my phone

Rafe : can I talk to you later ?

Y/n : sure but why ?

Rafe : I'll tell you later ok

Y/n : okkk

Rafe: sit next to me at lunch ?

Y/n: I guess I could 🙄