Scratches [Kageyama x Hinata] (KageHina)

Why So Protective?

Thoughts are mixed within the boys' minds as Kei Tsukishima tries ruin their love, words they cannot speak out build up inside their heads, making them go in parallel ways, further than ever before:

---Shouyou Hinata---

In my first year of high school, I saw the King of the Court not as my rival, but a teammate, who's on the same side as me & fighting alongside me. I looked up to him a lot, even in my final moments of middle school, even when we were crushed mercilessly, because he was as great as people described him. He had an average face, he was very tall, his body was toned and built for volleyball, he's great at serving, even greater in tossing. If there were 5 more copies of him in a team, they'd surely be able to win the Nationals. But that's where the 'mistake' in his being lies.

It turns out that the 'King of the Court' title was not because he ruled the volleyball court with crazy skills, it's because he was bossy and conceited---he did not know what 'teamwork' was. But he changed as time passed in Karasuno. Kageyama slowly became a team player and he gradually turned into a better person.

Little does he know, he's also changed me. That's why I love him. 

But in this discriminating universe, we seem to be worlds apart. A world wherein people are classified under three kinds; a world where injustice can be seen everywhere; a world where you cannot choose who you want to love.

And it scares me to death...that you'll leave me alone...

I already know who your fated mate is; I already know why you rush so early in the morning and why you go out after an hour when you wake up late; I already know why you always wear masks even though you've never even worn one before; I already know why you always spray around the hallway everytime you go outside; I already know why you're always locking the door right after you come home------because I already know who he is.

You'd never know how jealous I was of Tsukishima, even before I realized you were tied to each other. He had the incredible height to tower over you, he had amazing looks, and you always seemed to contrast each other greatly, like a perfect couple. It's difficult really, because you won't know when you'll get together.

No one will ever understand how cruel fate is, and how it's making me even more cruel. I don't know how to apologize, I'm always leaving scars and wounds on your back every time---it's to mark you as mine and mine only. I don't want you to leave, please stay by my side. I can't help but worry over these things because no one knows what will happen in the future! That scares me the most! To the point I break down every single time you leave this room.

....And if it's really not meant to be, please let me cherish you for now, please don't pay attention to my feelings, please let me love you, and please forget everything about me when you go to him.

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---Tobio Kageyama---

You've changed me in ways more than one. You've made my steel cold eyes see a life worth making better. You've shifted my personality into one that harmonizes with your gentle and soft demeanour.

I want to fall asleep with you in bed as we share warmth underneath the blanket. I want to keep watching movies and play games while we cuddle. Only you can make me lose my composure and handle me with ease. Only you can make me turn from a normal person into a wild beast. Only you make my heartbeat go crazy and make my mind go blank therefore I....want to keep kissing you until I run out of oxygen. I want to embrace you until I can't feel my arms anymore. I want run my fingers across your hair until it turns to silver white. I want to look into your eyes until I can't see no more.  I want to hold your hand until my final moments in this world. I want to spend my whole lifetime together with you.

This wretched world and it's stupid factions can't stop me and they never will stop me from loving you as much as I do. Words cannot explain and I don't think I can ever explain---how much I am sorry I'm always asking you to do it with me just to show I own you. I'm sorry I'm always suddenly kissing you out of the blue, I'm sorry I'm overly protective and possessive at times, I hope you don't mind...because they're proof that my heart belongs to you and only you, never will it change.

I admit that that blondie's smell gets to me but I promise you, not once have I ever been allured. The fact that we're 'soulmates' pisses me off so bad (please don't misunderstand why I'm hiding it from you), but what makes me lose my temper more is that he loves you. Trust me, both of us hate each other's guts---and I don't care what will happen after I kill him if he so much as to lay a finger on you.

Please try to understand, I don't want anybody but you. Don't lose faith in me. Don't think I'll let Tsukishima have you---because I'll never leave you alone no matter what.