One of the things I'll miss would be our little apartment I call home, a few minutes away from the heart of a certain city. There's also Karasuno High, my second home. And our upperclassmen who I've gotten to know and become my teammates. Along with the people whom I got the chance play sets with in practice matches and official matches. The games, the competition, the feelings, and the adrenaline. The meatbuns, the ice cream, and the buffets that everyone shared. Those are my important things....
But the one I'll miss the most, where I belong.......Tobio Kageyama....the one who I've come to love and treasure the most, the person most important and dearest to me.
We just have the best luck in the world, don't we? Just when we had gotten together, my sickness suddenly turns in for the worst. But it's crazy.....it's like I don't really mind going far away...
I can recall all the moments we spent together and had the world in our hands, every single minor piece, being played back and going in a loop, as if I was watching a movie that never ends.
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I knew fully well how wrong my decisions were from the start, to chase after you...I shouldn't have done that really. And the little part of me who thought we might have mutual feelings back then, pushed me even harder.
In this world, humans are classified under Alpha, Beta, and Omega.
And I, as an Omega, hold a rare illness within me, an irregular heat cycle that arrives ever so randomly, whether I liked it or not. It was actually a severe disorder in my systems and it was bound to be the cause of their downfall.
I knew that. I knew it'd come for me in time...yet I still took the risk. And here we are, at the end of the world. Because of that decision, you'll end up being alone. I know you'd never look for a replacement, you're that stubborn and it's my fault....that you're going to be in so much pain, carrying this all throughout your life...
I'm sorry.
I'm really sorry.
I want you to forget.
But that's impossible considering it's you...
Ahh........what should I do?
I want to stay.
Can I stay?
I don't think I'll ever be at peace knowing I've left you behind. Let me stay. Please let me stay. I want to fight. I want to dance in this hell of a world—-and I don't care how merciless these discriminating humans are, as long as I'm with Kageyama, I can overcome anything, even this crappy of a sickness. I don't want to give up just yet. I don't want to think I'll go yet. I want to stay. Can I stay? I want to bask in the sun again. I want to eat more of the convenience store's meatbuns again. I want to continue going to school again. I want to learn with my classmates again. I want to play volleyball again. I want to meet everyone again. I want to see you again. I want to hold you again. I want to just hug you, embrace you, cuddle with you all my life. I want to kiss you again. I want to hold your hand. Can't I do that? Can't I just have a happy ever after with you...?
Can't I hold on?
Can't I stay?
Can I not let go?
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I can't.
I must not think anymore that way...if I'm going to go, I shouldn't leave regrets behind. I can't afford to think I'll live this through. Even the doctors felt troubled from the start, I could see it on their faces the minute I saw them.
There's no saving grace. There's no heaven. There're no angels. There's nothing but us, people, struggling to keep alive and survive. We are still humans: feeble and weak, we are not strong. But there are others who find their way to make use of the little strength they have, and turn it in for the better.
I want to believe...you are one of them...
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Kageyama....
.....what should I do..?
...I don't think your situation will just be that bad...
........if you knew this operation won't be a success...
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I want you to see the brighter side.
I want to believe you won't suffer.
As a human, with the little power I have, I hope I can send you my feelings..
...and my new resolve...
I hope it reaches you, be it real or not...
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Scratches [Kageyama x Hinata] (KageHina)
FanfictionTobio Kageyama isn't alone now. But with the current flow of things, he's not so sure anymore and gets insecure. Given the situation, Shouyo Hinata has worse conditions; scared of losing his beloved 'King', he ends up going crazier and crazier by th...