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22.Chan's problems (2)

*Chan's POV
We were watching "Captain Marvel", it was pretty great movie...suddenly I saw she brings up her legs, her eyes is closing but then she struggles to sleep cause she's uncomfortable with the position. I chuckled, she's so cute...but whatever, she is really discomfort right now so I pulled her head to my shoulder. Maybe she doesn't know that was my shoulder so she stuck her head even more into my neck, I can felt she peacefully breathing on my neck.

It has been so long since my parents and me sat down and watched movies in this room, I never thought that will get back here one more time and watched Netflix in this whole big room, even though it been cleaned every weekend cause I don't have time and don't want to be alone.

I looked at the girl who is sleeping peacefully on my shoulder, we are not that close but I'm glad that we met and I didn't accept her apology. It has been really hard for me to find a real smile in a normal day and she...she is the one who makes me smile, like smile by my heart. I feel comfortable when she's around, like I have nothing to worry, I always thought that all the girls trying to approach me is because of my money or my power not the real me.

I know is hard to make friend with a person like me cause I have a lot of dangerous enemies and also my weird emotions, but she just ignored it. The night when I saved her, I thought she would never gonna talk to me again and avoid me, but she still ride me home and stay happy with me. Also what she said earlier about she's not gonna take advantage of anyone, I know that she's not that kind of person. I don't know if I am in love with her or not but I'm pretty sure I want to stay like this for awhile. Well, just let it be... I looked my watch, 11 pm already...ugh...I need to go work to now.

I put my palm under her head for not falling, then slowly lifted her up to bridal style and walked to my bedroom. After place her in my bed, I covered her with blanket then patted her head and turned off the lights. I went to my office room to get working on my project, I need to finish the sketch before tomorrow, but something in my mind makes me can't focus on my work.

I think about back then, my parents and me were still in the old house when we not very rich yet. We were so happy, eat together, play together, watch movies together, they sing for me to sleep,...I miss that. They worked together as a real estate agent in a company, they had their own dream and very serious on their work. Everything was fine to me until their success selling a big project to a big "fat fish" and their boss seem to very trust them so he gave alot of opportunity for them to sell their projects to some big rich customers.

That time, I thought I was happy cause they bought me alot of cool clothes, phone, laptop,... but when they finally got their own company and finally became CEO. I realized I really don't like it, even I got what want like big house, big car,...I just feel more lonely and more insecure, I rather stay a small house with my family than a big house but on my own!

I been selling products since I was 15, I work for a company and what I've been selling is illegal guns, all kinds, and I was so regret that I started selling guns but I stuck into that shit and I can't get out of it...Luckily, when I moved to PJY, I found friends... Felix and Hyunjin, they always here when I need them, also Han and Lee Know, they are the only place that I can express my real feelings. But unfortunately, they found out I sell guns and they said they want to help, at first I didn't accept but they were too good, I don't deserve that but they saved me away from a fight and I have to accept them.

And Hyunjin, he got his sister and a younger brother to raise, I can't let he get into this mess so we didn't tell him but he found out and really upset about it. He not upset that I didn't tell him nor I sell guns, what he cares about is me, he cares about my health and my reputation.

"I can't believe that you actually do that!" - he yelled at me.

"Hyunjin..." - I whispered.

"Look at your wounds! Look how dangerous it is! And you even bought the boys into this? I can't believe!" - he shouted. And we got silence.

"If you still selling that, get in dangerous then our friendship over..." - he said after calm down, looked at me hoping I will change my mind.

"I'm sorry, I can't do that." - I looked down. He widen his eyes.

"Then good luck with your wounds." - he said and get out my house, slammed the door real strong.

I signed, if I can give up everything and just live a normal life that will be great. Well, I said that my friends are my only place that I can express my feelings...but not always...they have their own business to do and me...I just rather go somewhere than stay in this stupid big house. I also can't sleep well when I started to sell guns, I feel so uncomfortable. We had cooperated with the TXT company to flourish the work but they've been so excessive, the night when we're fighting:

7:45

"Why we have to come early, boss?" - Felix asked me.

"To prepared things, I just don't feel good about this." - I said.

"They really gonna kill us." - Han asked.

"They don't dare, I know that." - I said.

7:55

"You're early, Mr. Bang." - the guy with his pink hair, no one else is Yeonjun with his crews.

"You're early too, Mr. Choi." - I said.

"So, I don't want to be lengthy, let's get straight into this. You bought your STAYs and I bought my MOAs, you really want to fight?" - he asked.

"If you take back your stupid thoughts about selling those things and everything is fine." - I said.

"What? You sell illegal guns and you know there's gotta be someday you have to sell drugs too." - he said.

"I don't know and I don't want to know. I sell guns then that's all." - I said.

"Don't remember who made your selling flourished, I was the one who bring you to some big customers. And now you want to cut our contract?" - he said walking close to me.

"If you don't, I also can still have my own clients and business. You, you just the one force me to cooperate with you, I will not let you force me again." - I said.

"...one word, sell or not?" - he asked about to fight me.

"Never in you stupid asshole." - I said.

"Then go to hell!" - he said and we started to fight... the rest you know, no ones die but hurt. I know he is not brave enough to kill somebody, he wants to sell those kind of things just because he has his father help him.

That's how it went and why I can't sleep peacefully. But it better than back then, at least I can sleep in 4-5 hours a day if I'm not working, I know why...because of her, her appearance has made my life changed so much. Her smile, her laughed, her presence made me feel more safe, happy and full filled.

I realized I smiling like an idiot when I think of her...get back Chan...you got a lot of work to do tonight, stop dreaming. I focus back on the laptop screen and sketch my gun out... draw, draw and don't care about the time. When I finished the sketch, it's already 5 o'clock and the sun almost rise. I stretched my back and stood up, I know she's not up yet but I still want to check her if she's fine. I gently opened the door room, she still sleeping peacefully, I sat down in a chair beside the bed. Tucking her hair behind her ear to see her face clearly...she looks so innocent, I can't deny that I admire her. Like she can forget things easily and be happy, isn't that amazing? I signed, God made a very fair world, he took away something from me but gave me something back as a comfort.

I took out a note and wrote her a letter then put it on the cupboard next to the bed then leave the room. Like daily, Ms.Mary was here at 5, I told her to make breakfast for Emily then leave the house. The sunlight went straight to my face and body. Ahhh...what a night!
                   ~~~~ end part 22 ~~~~