Missing love (stolitz) (Blitzø angst)

Chapter 3: Worries?

Time skip to the middle of the day after they finished with a few clients.

BLITZØ POV:

I was getting some more paper work done until i heard another knock on the door

"come in".

The door opens and i see Moxxie walk up to me as i quickly switch to my fake smile

"oh hey Mox what d'ya need?"

"Er.. sir, me and the others cant help but notice that you are acting a bit.. distracted today.. and we cant help but not be concerned.."

he says with a concerned tone. Shit did they find out..?

"O-oh! Well t-there's nothing wrong! J-just thinking of s-some shit ya know?"

I saw trying to hide the fact that i was nervous.

"...sir are you sure..?"

"Omg Moxxie! I said im fine! Get it through your shitty, pea sized, empty brain for once! For fuck sakes! If i said my fine then im fine! Why do you have to stick your ass up everyones business! Its annoying as fuck and pathetic the fact that you have to fill your time being shitty!"

I yell with an angry and aggressive.

Truth be told.. im not fine.. at all.. my brain is like a stormy tornado filled with voices, thoughts and flash backs of bad memories..

"w-well you're welcome for trying help! What did i expect of course you will react this way.."

"I DONT NEED YOU OR YOUR HELP FUCKING RETARDED SHIT! GO BE ABSOLUTELY USELESS AND OBNOXIOUS SOMEWHERE ELSE!!"

in reality i wasn't mad at him but myself. All the things i said to him aren't towards him.. but to me..

"you know what, FINE! Fuck you and your pride! What the fuck is even wrong with you!?? I try helping and all you can do is insult people!?? Is that all you can do!? No 'thank you Moxxie for being one of the few people in all of Hell who cares because everyone else left me cause i totally deserve it for being a fucking piece of shit who cares about no one but myself'! Thats right Blitzo no one does! And you know what!? No one should! Since you're so shitty and disgusting! You really are so fucking cold and heartless! Fuck you.. BLITZO"

He says with some tears in his eyes as he leaves and slams the door.

"...i know.."

i say as i stare at the wall my thoughts and voices swallowing and engulfing me in my dark thoughts.

MOXXIE POV:

I slam the door behind me as Millie and Loona run up to me

"we heard what happened.. im so sorry that happened to you hon.."

Millie says as she hold my hands looking at me with concern.

"Leave him, if he wants to be an ass hole let him be an ass hole nothing we can do about it.."

Loona seemed to hesitate a bit looking away then she finally decided to talk

"i er.. i dont know if this is something i should say but er.."

"what is it Loona?"

Millie said looking at her ears drooped.

"I er heared him.. scream and break some glass yesterday in the middle of the night.. he sound like he was crying and.. he.."

she hesitated as some tears rolled down her face.

"What did he do..?"

Millie asked as we both looked at her concerned as tears rolled down her face.

"I-i heard him say some hurtful things.. not to anyone but.. to..."

then she mumbled something at the end

"to who Loona?"

I ask finally getting myself together and be able to talk.

"H-himself!"

She answered. What did she just say!?

"H-hold on.. your telling me that, THAT cocky bastard was.. self hating on himself.. in the middle of the night..?"

Millie asked.

"Y-yea.."

she responded looking down.

"I-i tried talking to him this morning.. he just said he was fine and didnt tell me anything.. if anything he was concerned about me saying he was there for me if i needed to talk to someone.. actually after crying and saying stuff, instead of worrying about himself he said that he should stay quiet not to wake me up.."

Loona responded with sone guilt in her voice.

"Oh my.. i didnt know he.."

Millie said with guilt in her voice as well.

"Why does he act like this if thats true then..?" i ask.

I cant believe what im hearing right now tho..

my boss caring about people and crying!??

"I dont know.. i dont know why he even was crying in the first place.."

Loona responded

"maybe something bad happened during the day? I mean if he said he is fine this morning and seemed to act normal today like always maybe what ever happened is fine now..?"

Millie suggested.

"I sure hope so.."

Loona responded.

BLITZØ POV:

Damn it damn it damn it!!!

You fucked up again you useless ass hole! great! Fucking great! Now they hate you more then they already did! Erg!!

Why does life have to be so hard..?

I bash my head on my desk as my thoughts spiral in my head.

I finally stop feeling a headache coming now, feeling dizzy my head thumbing.

I noticed some blood coming from my forehead but i didnt care i just wiped it off and continued the paper work, the stupid thoughts not showing any sign of shutting up.

MILLIE POV:

After that whole fight between Moxxie and Blitzø, Blitzø seemed to have continued on like nothing happened back to his old annoying cocky self.

He really does have a high ego, which makes me feel like whatever happened last night that Loona explained could have just been Blitzø being dramatic.

After all Blitzø being Blitzø he is bound to get upset at anything and everything so of course he's gonna act like a shit head for every single thing that bothers him.

Not like we care tho since he still seems to move on from them pretty quickly and puts the attention back to himself or to work, what ever we would be doing.

I just hope he doesnt make another outburst towards Moxxie again, cause if he makes him upset one more time, im gonna knock that ego right out of him and to the fucking moon.

I cant but notice him being slightly off sometimes tho, like spacing out or mumbling to himself but its just probably him thinking of plans to get more kills or just him being a jack ass and complaining about things that shouldnt matter.

Cant do much about it tho, guess we have to deal with it.

A/N:

K imma stop writing chapters now. Hope you like the story so far! Any advice you wana gave me to improve my writing for future chapters feel free to tell me! Anyways u all have a great day/afternoon/night! Imma go sleep now cause it's almost 2 am and i havnt slept yet and i gotta wake up for school in like 4 hours QvQ bye guys!! Love u all!! Stay safe!! 💖💖💖💖