One day I had just about enough. I just wanted to give up... Every thing was too much and... And I wanted nothing more then to let go and cut a bit deeper. A cut so deep where it was sure to end my life.... I closed my eyes and put my knife to my throat and put pressure on the blade. As soon as I had had done that, visions of Regean, and my best friend jade, and all my other friend flashed through my eyes. All the good moments passing by as if it was a movie, a tear fell down my cheek as I just continued pressuring the blade further down my throat. The pressure lightening with each second, the second I reach the left side of my neck I dropped the blade and fell to my side crying. I couldn't believe that I was gonna break my promise, that I was gonna leave all my friends behind, but my heart wanted so bad to go. I had never felt worse as I did now, the thoughts swirling in my head and the tears never ending.... But I knew I had to stop, I got some antiseptic wipes and cleaned my neck from some lone beads of blood and climbed in my bed. I looked at my phone finding it to be 4:57am, I simply cried myself to sleep.... My friends just thought I scratched myself in my sleep... I thought maybe I should tell them but what would that do? What could they say that I haven't heard before? I gave up... I'll let them believe what they want too...
YOU ARE READING
My suicide story...
Novela JuvenilI don't know why I would, but I figured that I'd write down what I've been feeling. So read if you will, it might be sad and it might just make sense, who knows... Enjoy my thoughts I suppose.
