I haven't thought to write for a while, I suppose I've been distracted... My boyfriend... Abel. Remember him? Well... He's been great haha I suppose I should be lucky to have a good reflection next to me, he drives away my darkness and lonyness, he distracts me from cutting and from my suicidal thoughts... I'm happy. Haha, he makes me happy. My knifes, the 2knifes who have been my best friends for a long time... I gave them to him. I don't know if that was a good idea or not but, he said that he would protect them with his life... :) He always has them with him, to remind him of my trust, that he technically holds my life in his hands. I just hope he won't abuse it.... I like him I really do but... I still have problems trusting people, especially with the knifes I used to cut with... But every relationship needs trust, right? So I should trust him, I know he won't hurt me, that he'll never leave me or even try to hurt my feelings. He try's his hardest actually to keep me happy, but I'm sure it's because he feels like it's the boyfriends jobs to keep the girlfriend happy and smiling haha.... Idk. I still feel like I'm going to say or do something to get him mad that he'll just walk away and leave forever...
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My suicide story...
Novela JuvenilI don't know why I would, but I figured that I'd write down what I've been feeling. So read if you will, it might be sad and it might just make sense, who knows... Enjoy my thoughts I suppose.
