Just Between You and Me

Cold Nights

Penelope's POV:
I rush out my office and into the elevator quickly pressing the first floor button. I was alone on the way down, holding tears back. I raced to my little apartment in the rain and shut the door behind me.
I threw everything down and ripped off my jewelry and made my way to the bathroom. I put my glasses on the counter and got in the shower. I turned on the cold water full blast and sat on the floor with my knees in my chest.
He's right. I'm a stupid, ugly, fat, bitch who doesn't deserve anything. I'm a failure. A disappointment. I was walking through my life blindly trying to forget the past and all the pain and hurting. I fooled people into thinking I was okay.
No one loves me. I'm a fatass that can't control her emotions. I'm not sexy or beautiful or even pretty. I will never be loved. I'll never have a chance at love. I'm such an idiot. I can't run from my problems. They'll eventually find you and nail you into the ground. It takes all the happiness away from you and leave you in ruins.
The water masks the bitter tears running down my face. My makeup was running but I didn't care. I shake and shiver under the ice cold water, but I didn't care, I deserved this. I'm ugly, fat, stupid, and I will never be loved for as long as I live.
I can't do this anymore.
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Derek's POV:
I walked down to Penelope's office and knock on her door. "Permission to speak to your highness?" I waited for an answer,"Baby Girl?" I turn the handle and it opens.
I find it empty with her monitors still on. That's so unlike her. I put down the files on her desk and walk up to one of her various screens and read it. "What the hell." Someone sent messages to her consisting of "Fat bitch" and "Stupid unloveable creature". I knew who it was and why she left in such a hurry.
I became enraged and stormed out her office. I slammed the door shut behind me and went into my own office. I grabbed my jacket and the keys to her apartment that she gave me. I ran to the elevator and pushed the down button. I got to the first floor and ran to the SUV.
I sped down to her apartment in the rain, skidding into a parking space and jumping out. I raced up the stairs to her door and quickly unlocked it. I find her things scattered over the floor along with her clothes.
I called out her name,"Penelope!" I stepped over her things and put the keys on the coffee table. I heard the shower running and barged in. I see her in her dress on the shower floor with the water running. I slide open the glass door and step in with her.
It was cold water on full blast. I didn't care that I was getting wet. I get on my knees in front of her and grab her face,"Penelope! Penelope, look at me! Look at me! Don't listen to him ok?! None of that is true ok?! You are beautiful and so fucking strong. I love you Penelope Garcia.
"You are a beautiful, curvy, sexy, strong, smart ass woman that can take on the world if she wanted to. I love you and you will always have me here for you." I was yelling and I don't know why, but I realized I was crying too. She wasn't responding to me and I felt her shaking under the cold water. I closed my eyes and placed my forehead against hers.
I wrapped my arms around her and rocked back and forth with her, holding her against me. She was hurting and I just wanted to take that away from her.