𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐨𝐨𝐭𝐡 | 𝐩.𝐜

𝐟𝐢𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧

I sat in my bed, arms hugging my knees and shaking profusely from the cold rain. My nose was running along with the silent tears streaming down my face, I couldn't believe myself.

I am truly horrid. The clock on my bedside ticked repeatedly it was the only thing in my room making noise, other than the occasional sniffle.

I didn't deserve to be sad, but I was.

I thought about all the things I could have said, but didn't. It was 2AM, and I still shivered in my own self deprecation. "What is wrong with me?" I whispered to myself, my throat raw and stripped.

At 5AM I found myself laying on the cold floor, I stopped crying, my eyes were dry and lips chapped. My hands ached from coldness but my hair had dried now - dried into a matted mess.

7AM I went outside, I walked down streets counting how many houses were on each. I tried desperately to distract myself, I needed to for my own good. But it was so so hard trying not to go to his house.

But I don't even know what I would say.

I can't tell him I love him now, not after i've gone and screwed it all up.

I just can't.

I walked back home around 9AM, Dally was inside pacing back and forth. As I entered he immediately stopped and grabbed me by my shoulders. "Where the hell have you been? What have I told you about running off?!"

Do I tell him?

Are me and Pony even still together? I mean we didn't say it officially, but I guess it goes without saying.

"Me and Ponyboy aren't together anymore."

Dally loosened his grip, his unkempt eyebrows furrowing. He gritted his teeth, hands balled into fists; but before he could lose his mind, he took a deep breath and swept his tongue over his bottom lip.

"Why?"

"Because I love him"

Dally didn't say anything, he almost looked as though he understood. He took me in and hugged me, I could almost laugh on how un characteristic this was.

"Wanna go for a drive?"

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"Hope you didn't miss a big test or anything" Dally said while the truck bounced on the gravel road. He let me miss school today for this, "I don't know, I haven't really been going"

"That's not good Katherine" He looked over at me, I was too much of a coward to look back.

"I know" I paused.

"Sorry" I bit the inside of my cheek. "It's alright, but your not gonna do what I did and not make your education a priority" He said sternly. "Okay, i'll go back"

"Good"

The truck swayed and bumped over the gravel road. I knew where we were going, I could be blindfolded and I would know.

We hadn't been here in such a long time but it was a place only me and Dal's went. A place where he wouldn't bring broads, a place I wouldn't bring boys, not that I would anyways.

Just him and me, our little lake.

"Makeout lake" I said.

"Ah you remembered" He said clicking his tongue.

I smiled a little, "I remember when I just called it our lake because I thought 'makeout' was a bad word"

"That you did missy" Dally chuckled.