Love fades but not for you

Chapter 2

*louis throws his bag over his shoulder and jets out of the arena saying nothing to his management, arriving to the house house he use to know as home an hour later. Taking a few deep heavy breaths before gets out of his car & walks to the door, knocking 3 times he steps back giving space between him & the door. Anxiously waiting tapping his foot on the door step, hearing the door open he looks up seeing Harry with his purple joggers and New York black hoodie on*
Louis: I might've went a wee over the speed limit getting here.
Harry: huh nothing new you always drive like you have 9 lives.
*harry steps aside pushing the door open so louis can walk in, Louis shuts the door quietly looking at his surroundings*
Louis: being here brings a hell of a lot of memories.
Harry: yea imagine fucking living here & seeing little things like the lamp shade on that lamp bringing a flash back to when you put it on your head and crawled on the floor like you were in the army just to make me laugh when I had my wisdom teeth cut out.
         *Harry says sarcastically but with pure sadness in his voice*
Louis: I actually remember that, you were laughing so hard you ended up making your mouth start bleeding.
Harry: mmm *harry clicks his tongue* no time to play catch up you're here to explain some shit remember?
                    * Harry walks past Louis going up the stairs to what use to be their old bedroom now it's just harrys room, Louis slowly following behind him taking in the comfort the house brings him, getting to the bedroom harrys sitting on the corner of the bed staring at the champagne carpet, rubbing his finger over the cross tattoo on his hand. Louis sets on the opposite side watching him carefully nervously chewing on the inside of his cheek*

Harry: you're free to speak when you're ready but we've not got all night I've got shit to do in the morning.
Louis: right sorry... so I-I.. fuck Harry there's so much shit to say.
             *louis stands up and starts pacing the room, Harry dosent look up, he stays focused on his cross*

Harry: hahaha clearly not enough because you went mia & made sure not to contact me at fucking all lou, but there's so much to say yea?      *harry laughs and shakes his head*
Louis: I went mia because I wasn't allowed to tell anyone where I went. I was allowed to contact with anyone. I left because I fucking had to Harry not because I wanted to. I didn't want to leave you. I fucking had no choice.
*harry looks up at Louis with dark hooded eyes*
Harry: you had no choice ? Everyone has a choice Louis. What are you even fucking talking about.
Louis: Simon Harry fucking Simon, that's what I'm talking about. Even after you Niall,Zayn& Liam were free I wasn't. I signed on another more year so you all could be free alright.
     * louis shouts throwing his hands in front of him, turning to face the dresser Louis lays his arms down on it and rests his head on his arms*
Louis: he had control over my phone, my accounts, everything Harry. I mostly wasn't allowed any contact with you, if I did it was going against the contract. I thought I was doing the right thing. I wanted you all to be free from him. You deserved it. Everyone was completely fucking miserable and he caused a lot of problems.
Harry: I didn't ask you to do that louis, I would've suffered through it, I would have done anything or fucking gave anything just to be with you, what you done was fucking selfish. You didn't even talk to me about shit. Answer me something yea?
        *louis turns around to look at Harry, making eye contact, seeing no life in Harry's eyes just dark piercing emerald eyes staring back at him*
Louis: yes I'll answer anything you want me to at this point. I could just stand here and not even talk, just being where you are is enough for me.
Harry: you said you signed on another year?
Louis: yea?
Harry: it's been 5 weeks sense the the contract ended. You still didn't contact me... so it's very fucking obviously it wasn't only Simon holding you back from me.
Louis: Harry...Come on do-
Harry: no don't just try and make up excuses. If you really wanted to be here where I am or if you wanted to hear from me you'd of been here or called the second that contract was fucking up, because of you & you're shit I went down a depressing fucking dark as hell path. Seems like coke & alcohol helped for the first 5 months & then I popped a few to many loris & that night ended pretty badly. Niall rushes me to the emergency room and had my stomach pumped, oh but wait it got worse after that what the fuck am I talking about. You see this, this right here..
         *harry pulls up his sleeve and dangles his arm out in between his legs*
Louis: Harry please... stop. I'm sorry Jesus fucking Christ, wh-
Harry: the blade didn't quite hit where I wanted it to. When I came to from losing to much blood I realized I should've cut upwards what a dumb ass I was cause look I'm still fucking here.
     *harry waved his hands in front of him, Louis grabs harrys wrists and kneels down in front of him with tears pricking at his eyes*
Louis: dont fucking say that, this isn't you. None of it Harry.  What the fuck.
Harry: I'm not me Louis. I'm never going to be the happy cheerful bright smiled Harry again. He's fucking dead & gone. I'm just a fucked up dark cold hearted lonely fucked up soul waiting for my time to be put 6 ft in the ground because this life on earth isn't worth fucking living for.
         *harry jerks his wrists away from Louis and stands up shoving Louis back a little making him bump against the dresser*
Harry: you can leave now, think you've explained enough.
Louis: no I'm not going, not yet.
Harry: Louis get the fuck out of my house, I thought this...this whole fucking conversation would've been a good idea. It was at the time when I was thinking about it before I texted you, but turns out it wasn't. Seeing you in front of me is to much. Way more than I thought I could handle, so could you please go lou.
         *harry sounding defeated breathing slowly with his back turned toward lou, quickly wiping at his eyes, sniffing before taking his sleeve across his nose*
Louis: I didn't mean to hurt you this bad Harry you have to believe me, you aren't what you said you are. You are way more than that, you are beautiful,sweet,caring, bright as the fucking sun, & you have such an addictive heart.
             *louis walks up behind Harry and wraps his arms around harrys waste*
Louis: I swear Harry I never wanted to hurt you, there wasn't a day or even a second that I didn't think about you.
               *louis puts his forehead in the middle of harrys shoulders, Harry starts shaking after holding in the tears for to long, he looks down at Louis small hand wrapped around his him, taking his hands covering Louis, he squeezes them tightly*
Harry: I needed you lou, I'm lost & I don't think I'm ever going to find my way back, I'm fucked.
Louis: I'm here Harry, I swear I'm here for good.
          *harry turns around looking down at Louis staring up at him*
Harry: what? What do you mean you're here?
Louis: those 5 weeks you were talking about, I was getting in another management & packing all my shit because well... *louis shrugs* I moved back here. I was coming to make it right haz. I told you, I never wanted to be away from you, I always want you. I'll always need you. This management is very easy to deal with. I'm not having to stay hidden, no controlling, I have privacy, they don't want access to my accounts,contacts or any of that shit. They just want me to do my job & me pay them for doin what only they are supposed to do.
          *harry rises his eyebrows & opens his mouth but no words are wanting to come out, wiping at his eyes*
Harry: you fucking moved here.. holy shit lou,
Louis: yea I think that's what I just said yea?
    *harry feeling a flutter in the pit of his stomach and his heart beating with a rhythmic beat of butterflies, something he's not felt in a year & 5 weeks*