Love fades but not for you

Chapter 18

Harry falls asleep,tired from crying for hours straight. Louis lays with him holding him closely. Harry starts mumbling catching Louis attention he looks down at him.
Harry: I think he's forgotten me. Louis dosent wake him he continues to listen quietly.
Harry: I wonder if he still feels the way I do ni. Louis heart sinks realizing he's dreaming about Niall and talking about Louis in his sleep. Taking his hand and brushing it against harrys cheek.

Louis: Hazza can you wake up.
Harry moves around opening his eyes just enough to see Louis.
Harry: I didn't know I feel asleep, was I snoring loud?
Louis looks down at him frowning.
Louis: no..
Harry: then why'd you wake me up?
Louis: you were talking in your sleep. Do you remember?
Harry: no I don't remember I was asleep. What the hell was I saying?
Louis: you uh you were talking to niall.. and you asked him if I still feel the same as you do and you said I'd probably forgotten you.
Harry knitts his brows.
Harry: hmm
Louis: I do harry. The way I feel about you hasn't went anywhere. It never will. I love you.
Harry: I'm still trying to understand the whole "I left for you to have freedom" ordeal. It's going to take me sometime to believe that again lou.
Louis: I know I fucking know.
Harry: and then I have all this other shit with Niall and Zayn going on it's making things ten times harder on me to move forward and look into the future. I'm just really fucking hurting right now Loui. Im still hurt by you and it fucking overly hurt that one of the most important people in my life is just gone now. Poof fucking vanished off the damn earth.
Louis: you're acting like you're the only one whose hurting Harry..
Harry: what?
Louis: you've acted like I'm not hurting, like this isn't bothering me. I'm hurt they are both gone. I'm hurt because I fucking hurt you trying to do what was best but you can't pull your head out of your ass to realize that. I sacrificed my fucking life for you to have freedom.
Harry: yea freedom without you. What fucking use is that. I didn't want a life without you Louis. I wanted you every second of every fucking day with me.
Louis: I'm never going to get this in your head. It's fucking impossible.
Harry: You should've called me or somehow contacted me to let me fucking know what the hell was going on and I didn't realize I was acting like you weren't hurt by Niall and Zayn lou. I'm to wrapped up in my own fucking grief I guess.
Louis: I should've yes I should've and believe me I'm regretting every single fucking time I had a chance to get in touch with you but didn't.
Harry stays silent looking at the ceiling.
Louis: I'm sorry you're hurting but I'm hurting to. I understand your grieving but you've got to give me a break and stop being such a dick to me.
Harry: fuck lou, I'm sorry. Harry shakes his head putting his hand over his face.
Louis: I know you are. I've been letting it slide but it's starting to get to me. I am proud of you tho.
Harry looks at Louis through his fingers.
Harry: huh? Why's that?
Louis: you've not tried to hurt yourself since this tragic shit show.
Harry: I made a promise to Niall that'd I'd do better for myself and think better of myself...
Louis: yea?
Harry: yup and I'm going to try and stick by that promise. Can't say I've not thought about doing things but I keep replaying Niall's lecture over and over again. Harry presses his lip together.
Louis: I'm telling you if you wouldn't have had Neil with you through it all, I'd possibly not have you in front of me at this moment.
Harry: I know you wouldn't. No doubt in my mind. I wouldn't be here, I'd be where he is.. Harry let's put a sigh.
Louis: for that I'll forever be grateful for him. I'll not be able to replace his spot ever but I promise I'll be behind you, beside you, under you, on top of you. Where ever the hell I need to be for you. Louis laughs making Harry laugh loudly.
Louis: holy shit!
Harry: what? What's wrong. Harrys laugh slowly fades.
Louis: do you know how good it feels to hear you laugh like that again? It's so fucking good.
Louis jumps up standing in front of Harry.
Louis: FUCK!!!! he says smiling with a teethe smile.
Harry: you're over exaggerating Louis. Sit the fuck down would you. Harry giggles.
Louis: no I'm not. That's music to my ears when you laugh like that. I swear to fuck.
Harry: well if I'm being honest the only thing I fucking heard from your sentence was under you or on top of you caught me off guard.

Louis: of course that's all you heard. Louis laughs shaking his head at Harry.
Harry sits quietly looking down at his cast.
Harry: hey lou?
Louis: yea?
Harry: I do need you somewhere.
Louis: umm ok? Louis looks confused down at Harry
Harry: I need you on top of me.... Harry looks up at Louis with a pleasing look.
Louis: oh for god sake Harry, I thought you were telling me I needed to leave or actually go fucking somewhere for you.
Harry: no, you're here and I'm not letting you leave me again. You're shit out of luck now. You're stuck with me.
Harrys says while grabbing onto Louis hoodie pulling him down gently on top of him.
Louis: Harry I don't want to hurt you.
Harry: you're not going to, just shut up and kiss me.
Louis looks into harrys eyes giving him a cheeky grin. Pushing his hands into harrys hair  getting it out of his face.
Louis: you're so beautiful haz.
Harry: alright enough of that. I can feel my cheeks turning red already. Harrys waves Louis off.
Louis: you never were good with compliments. Louis puts his forehead into harrys. Lips inches  apart. Heart beats becoming faster the closer they get.
Harry: I want you lou, I need you. Harry whispers, his lips grazing Louis bottom lip.
Louis: Ive wanted you so bad. I wasn't going to rush you into sex after everything that's happened. I'd of felt like an ass.
Harry: I'm up for it now. Harry pushes his aerosol into Louis abdomen.
Harry: I'm literally up for it. He laughs.
Nipping at Louis neck with his teeth. Louis lets out a quite moan. Lifting hisself up a little off of Harry he takes his hoodie off, his bare chest now touching harrys. Grabbing harrys neck with both hands Louis takes harrys bottom lip biting it. Harry smiling under Louis.
Harry: this is going to be hard as fuck for you to fuck me with this big ass cast on my leg.
Louis: who said I had to fuck you to get you off?
Louis slides his self down between harrys opened legs. Pulling his shorts shorts down exposing his erection, letting it smack harrys belly.
Louis: always so hard for me. Louis looks up at him with teasing eyes.
Harry: only for you.
Louis grabs Harry with one hand pumping him slowly. Licking his lips he takes harrys head in his mouth. Harry lazily lets his head fall back.
Harry: fuck lou.
Louis swirls his tongue while bobbing his head up and down.
Harry: this isn't going to last long. It feels so fucking good. Harry moans biting his lip.
Louis gearing Harry he starts pumping his self.
Louis: you sound so fucking good.
Harry looking down at Louis.
Harry: oh fuck lou I'm going to cum watching you.
Louis pumps Harry faster sucking harder and deeper. Harrys stomach tightens, fisting a grip of Louis Harry his chin falls to his chest, breathing heavily spilling into Louis mouth. Louis spills into his hand, not making a mess on the couch.
Harry: I needed that, fuck I needed that.
Louis lets out a chuckles watching as Harry comes down from his high.
Harry: you are too damn good at that. I don't last long with your mouth. Harry says resting his arm over his face.
Louis: you're too good at looking this sexy.
Harry: what? I'm not even doing anything I'm laying here breathing heavily and sweating like hell.
Louis: and you're sexy while doing it. Louis shrugs.
They end the evening ordering take out from Chinese and watching the notebook cuddled up on the couch.
Harry not looking away from the tv shifts his position.
Harry: I love you lou.
Louis looks over at Harry who's still watching the movie.
Louis: I love you hazza. I really do. He eyes Harry up and down before he turns his attention back to the movie smiling like a kid at a candy shop.