Sargent Barnes

Untitled Part 7

I ran after Bucky looking everywhere. I didn't want to do this to Shuri but listening to T'Challa's words and to Steve's. I knew he was where I belong. I ran after him as he kept storming off. I yelled at him to stop. He saw me and I noticed that he was crying. I jogged up to him but he ran away. I chased after him. We got to a patch of grass and I tackled him. 

Bucky: YOU MADE IT CLEAR THAT YOU HATE ME! GET OFF!
Y/n: JUST LISTEN!! I'M SORRY!! I never hated you. I was hurt. I still am!!! And I never meant those words. I love you, I will always go after you! And I always want us to be together. I don't deserve you, Buck. I never have and I never will. I won't ever leave you EVER again. I swear to god, Bucky. I'm sorry for hurting you. I won't hurt you again. 
Bucky: Get off, please. 
Y/n: Please, Buck. I can't go without you. I never can. I love you please. I forgive you. I forgive you.. 

I started crying. I meant every word. I rested my head on his chest admitting my wrong doings. I wrapped my arms around him crying into the crook of his neck. He hesitantly wrapped his arms around me. I tried to stop crying but I couldn't.

Bucky: I forgive you too. And, I'm SO sorry. I never wanted or intended to hurt you.

I cried even harder. I tried calming down. But I couldn't. 

Bucky: Let's get you back to Steve.

He got us up and walked us over to Steve. When we got there we heard a monitor beeping. At this point I was calmed down. Bucky had stopped dead in his tracks. I was confused. I pulled away and went to Steve's room to see the flat line. I covered my mouth to stop me from screaming. At this all I known was that 

Steve was gone.

I picked up the pace of my breathing and I stared at his dead body. I stumbled backwards. I felt a wave of pain and shock. I felt the tears flow down my face. I thought it was fake till I heard the doctors saying 

Doctor: Time of Death... 7:39 pm. Captain Steve Rogers. 

I screamed and cried. Bucky held me trying to calm me down but he wasn't calm either. He was crying and in pain as well. He sat in front of me. Held me in his grasp so I couldn't get to Steve. I soon broke out of his arms. I got to Steve holding him in my arms.

Y/n: No... No... You're alive. You're alive. You aren't gone! YOU'RE NOT GONE!!! 

I started bawling my eyes out as he laid there lifelessly. 

Bucky: Doll, come on. 
Y/n: I-I can-can't leave hi-him.. I-I can-can't! 
Bucky: Doll, I kn-know.. Plea-please. 
Y/n: N-no. Please, no. 

He got me away from Steve. I kicked and punched him. But as I realised that he was also broken from this, I squirmed around in his grip and I got to hug him. He allowed me to cry painfully. He cried as well. We fell to the ground I knew he was silently crying not effected by it like I was. But he did hurt. 

Bucky: I-I'm so sorr-sorry.
Y/n: He-he's gone... Ste-Steve's gone... 

When he stopped crying he picked me up and carried me home with him. I had fallen asleep in his arms. As we entered his room, and he placed me on his bed gently, I grabbed his arm. 

Y/n: Stay.
Bucky: Give me 5 minutes.
Y/n: Please?
Bucky: I'll make it 2 minutes. 
Y/n: Okay.

I was half-way awake at this point. I was so numb from the tears I shed and the pain I felt. The heartache was the worst part of it. Bucky came back and he laid next to me. I cuddled up to him after he got comfortable. I felt a kiss hit my head. I let a few more tears slide down my face. I heard him sniffle. I just hugged him back not wanting to let anything out of my grip.

Bucky: He didn't deserve to die... Not yet...
Y/n: It's my fault. If we didn't fight. And I didn't have to leave, he wouldn't of gone alone. Nor the way he did. 
Bucky: It isn't your fault, doll. It's no ones fault.

We sat there in a comfortable sad silence. I didn't loosen my grasp on him. We fell asleep in each others arms. I couldn't lose him next. I couldn't lose anyone else.