Sargent Barnes

Chapter 6

Y/n's POV~~

Y/n: Leave me alone!!
Bucky: I'm forced to choose! I came out here to think! I want you both but I can't have that! So, I've decided no matter how much I love her,... I need you. I promised you, EVERYTHING. And I tend to give it all to you. 
Y/n: NO!! I don't want it anymore!! Take it! ALL OF IT AND GIVE IT TO HER!! 

I punched him and slapped him. He didn't let go. I was lying when I told him I didn't want it anymore. I kicked his shin and he stayed there. 

Y/n: LET ME GO!! I HATE YOU!! 
Bucky: You don't mean that...
Y/n: I MEAN EVERY WORD!! I HATE YOU!! I HATE YOU!! 
Bucky: STOP!!! 
Y/n: NO! 

I finally punched him to the point he let go. I ran. I never hated him. I could never hate him. He was right. I didn't mean it. I ran as far as I could without stopping. I got to an alleyway and sat against the wall crying. A voice echoed. I got up but stood my ground. I saw the man in the cat suit from earlier.

??: I'm not here to hurt you. I just want to talk.
Y/n: I don't know you, though.
??: I'm King T'Challa. From Wakanda, I am the black panther.
Y/n: Your highn-
T'Challa: No need, Mrs.Barnes.
Y/n: It's ms.Barnes.... Not Mrs. I'm Y/n... Bucky's wife- uh ex-wife. 
T'Challa: Hmm.. It's nice to meet you.
Y/n: It's nice to meet you too... What did you want to talk about?
T'Challa: About my sister, Shuri. She insists that you have White Wolf. But, I on the other hand thinks no one should have him. You got married to him the night that he deployed. You were convinced he had died but turns out he was kidnapped and turned into a killer. What you don't know is that every day of the week he talked about you, thought of you, and he even tried forgetting you but in order to do that he had to learn to make amends. I'm not trying to be the referee or the breaker of an amazing relationship, I'm telling you this because, I believe that Shuri has a different goal in life and Sargent Barnes is taking her mind away from that goal. Distracting her if you will.
Y/n: Like I said, T'Challa... I don't have a problem with it, and I don't want him. It hurts to admit that, however, I can't be the one that gets to sleep beside him, eat with him, kiss him, or even hug him. T'Challa, for so long, all I wanted was for him to be back in my arms. For my form to melt right into his. But, I understand that that won't be happening. And it can't. So, by all means, take him. Have him. Cherish him. I love him... Trust me, I do. I just can't have him in my life.

I tried running away but he stopped me. His hand was gripped around my wrist. He pulled me back but into his arms. I think he noticed that I needed to cry and to be comforted at this time. But that I didn't want it. He ran his fingers through my hair and he allowed me to cry. I wrapped my arms around him and he comforted me. 

T'Challa: You belong with him. Take him.
Y/n: I-I can't. 
T'Challa: Why not?
Y/n: I can't face him without seeing my brother. I-I don't w-want to l-look at h-im and bl-blame him f-f-for Ste-Steves death. 
T'Challa: You're Cap's sister?
Y/n: Y-Yeah? 
T'Challa: Come along. You need to know.

He pulled me along with him. We got to a big building. He opened the door and I walked in. 

??: King, T'Challa. Your request?
Y/n: What the hell-
T'Challa: Don't worry. F.R.I.D.A.Y take us to Steve.

He started walking as "F.R.I.D.A.Y" Talked to him about recent things. He opened up another door.

T'Challa: Go see your brother.

I hesitantly walked into the room and looked around.

Y/n: Steve?
Steve: Y/n? 
Y/n: Hey.
Steve: Hi.

I walked over to him and sat down on the bed beside him. He was old and hooked up to machines. Tears started to form in my eyes. Steve lifted his arm up and wiped my tears away smiling at me. I smiled back and held his hand. I broke down even more. He started to cry. 

Y/n: I missed you so much. I missed you.
Steve: I missed you too, Y/n. Don't cry.
Y/n: I can't stop. How are you still alive?
Steve: Super serum soldier decided to retire.
Y/n: I was turned into one as well. I also froze for 80 something years.
Steve:Did you?
Y/n: Yeah... God, what happened? 
Steve: We won. Every battle, we won and lost. 
Y/n: I wish I was there. I wish I made you guys stay with me. 
Steve: I wished you did too. Did you see Bucky yet?
Y/n: Yeah... Thanks to T'Challa I know almost know what to do. Why did he tell me you died?
Steve: No one knows I'm alive all they know is that... I'm on the moon. 
Y/n: I've always wanted to go there.
Steve: That's why I chose the moon.
Y/n: You thought of me?
Steve: Everyday of my life. 

I broke down even more. He made room next to him and he pulled me down next to him. He held me as I cuddled into him. 

Y/n: You look like a big ol' grandpa now.
Steve: Hey!! To be fair you're 101 as well. 
Y/n: Leave me be old man.
Steve: I love you, sis.
Y/n: Love you too, Rogers.

I started to fall asleep in his arms. He held me and all I wanted was my brother. No one or nothing else. Just him. And in this moment, that's what I got. And I'm happy about that. I woke up to Steve sleeping peacefully. I got lost in my thoughts when I heard a light knock on the door. I slowly got up an walked over to the door.

Bucky: I swear I didn't know he was alive.
Y/n: Will you shut up? He's sleeping. I want more time with him alone.
Bucky: I want to talk with you. 5 minutes. 
Y/n: Fine. 5. No longer.

I walked with him out of Steve's room and I looked at him with my arms folded. He looked at me.

Bucky: I get your mad. And I would be too. I'm sorry I hurt you and I lied to you. I want to make things right. I choose you and if I can't have you then.. I would be dead. 
Y/n: You've gone 8 whole decades without me!
Bucky: I also want to talk about that..
Y/n: 4:30 left. Better hurry up.
Bucky: When you were frozen in ice and we didn't know it, I was turned into a killer. Brain washed, into killing thousands of people. It didn't matter who they were or how old they were... I can't live without you. In those years, I wasn't myself. I didn't know who I was. I knew that I was prisoner #56898. Then I went to Wakanda to be set free from the words to trigger the Winter Soldier. And while doing that I met Shuri. I fell for her.
Y/n: Did you tell her you loved her?
Bucky: Twice...
Y/n: That's all I needed to know.
Bucky: Are you jealous?
Y/n: No, Buck! I'm mad, and hurt. I'm in pain because of you!! So leave... Let me be with my brother. Go be with the princess.
Bucky: That isn't fair! I never knew you were alive.
Y/n: YES IT IS!! YOU KISSED ME!! YOU held me. YOU hugged me. YOU didn't tell me about her I had to find out on my own!!! So yeah. It is fair. I'm sorry that those things happened to you. I truly am.. But you cheated on her. You broke her too. So you go clear this up with her before you clear it up with me. Because she is was I don't care. She's your girlfriend. 
Bucky: And, you're my wife!
Y/n: It's over... We're done. Put a ring on someone else's hand. Don't come back to me. I'm not going to be with you ever again. Bye, Buck.
Bucky: No, don't say that. DON'T! WE PROMISED EACH OTHER TILL THE END OF THE LINE!!
Y/n: And that end came to a screeching halt.
Bucky: Don't leave me. I still need you.
Y/n: And I need you! But you broke everything I ever had for you! The day you walked out that door with Steve. At least he didn't turn me way when I returned. 
Bucky: I DIDN'T TURN YOU AWAY!!
Y/n: I'm done, Buck. I'm tired. Leave! GO! 

I yelled at him crying. He finally listened to me. He left and I walked into Steves room again sitting against the door crying. Steve groaned and I looked up to see him.

Steve: What happened?
Y/n: I screwed up. 
Steve: Him? Or you?
Y/n: I don't know. Steve, I want him back.
Steve: Then go get him.
Y/n: I don't want to.
Steve: Do I need to chase after him then?
Y/n: As funny as that would be, no. 
Steve: You can't come back into my room until you chase after him.
Y/n: I hate you.
Steve: I love you too.

I got up and walked. He yelled for me to run. I cleared my mind and realized that Bucky and I we weren't supposed to be apart.