Hiding behind Rainbows 🌈

Hi welcome to my first Larry Stylinson book "Hiding behind Rainbows". I have been a obsessed with One direction , and all the boys for a long while , I can never get enough of them , through this obsession I fell in love with The love story of Harry and Louis, the more I found out the more I fell in love !!!
I couldn't imagine how they navigated a relationship through everything they went through, the more I  read about Larry then more my heart aches for them.
So Join Harry on a journey as he tours America with his love on tour concerts , each song he sings brings back memories of his time in one direction, and his love for Lou .
I never thought of writing but recently I have been in lockdown due to covid and needed a outlet for my creativity .
I had a idea and went with it , and found it so easy and enjoyable.
It's about the Past, The future and the present.
So I hope you enjoy it, please vote and give feedback, I would love to know what though think .
This book is dedicated to "LOVING"
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Harry is half way through a concert.

The roar of the fans was deafening as I stop and look around the Arena, Sometimes I still find it hard to believe that they are all here for me, that this is my life, that I am so adored.
The intro of the next song begins, The crowd goes quiet as I look up, I see the Arena is illuminated with beautiful white lights as I start singing the first line.
"If I could fly "
"I'd be comin' right back home to you"
"I think I might"
"Give up everything, just ask me to"
A small smile appears on my lips as I remember who I wrote this song for.
"For your eyes only"
"I'II show you my heart"
I put my head up high looking for that connection, looking for those eyes that make my heart melt and my insides flutter.
Searching for the bluest eyes I have ever seen, I gaze as our eyes lock, I take a deep breath in, everything is whole again.
I can make out his silhouette, and I know that he is there just out of my reach.
I know he is smiling as I continue with the song because He knows I wrote it about him.
It's my love song to him, my devotion to my soulmate, the only person who I truly love and who has never left my side, the person who helps it all make sense, My love Lou. This  song is about giving the truest part of myself to Lou, I would  give up everything for him.
He is my comfort person, my home.
I was on the other side of the world when  I wrote " if I could fly" at the same time Lou was away from me writing "Home" .
We were separated by management at the time , when we so Desperately wanted to be together, we longed for this.
We knew the one way that management couldn't touch us was through our Music , the songs we wrote , the lyrics we sang.
When the  rest of the boys heard " if I could fly" for the first time, they all cried  because they knew the pain and suffering behind the lyrics .
Management refused to allow Lou to release Home as one of our singles which funny enough got leaked on to Spotify causing quite the drama for Simon and management.
This song is about Lou being close to my heart and the experience of our love, the weight of it , the light of it , the truth of it , both good and bad , Its about me being completely in love with the soul of this man .
The person who I was going  to spend the rest of my life with, it's so rare that life brings a gift that of your true soul mate , one that touches you without the use of a fingers, one that speaks to you without saying a word , one that loves you in spite of ourselves.
Our bond is undeniable and grew to be unbreakable .
The song finishes as The cords  TPWK  Begins, stepping up to the microphone I yell
"Are you ready to sing for me Portland ?".
I glance up at the VIP box, I can feel him and I know he is smiling so proud of me.
"Maybe we can"
"Find a place to feel good"
"And we can treat people with kindness"
"Find a place to feel good"
I keep singing until the instrumental beings, the crowd is screaming as they know what Will come next.
I grab the flags that I have on stage, picking them up high above my head, I dance, I run, I skip around the stage waving the flags with pride all around me, for FREEDOM.
As I approach the runway, I feel their eyes on me, watching my every move, watching what I am saying and doing.
I know that they hate it when I do this, when I parade around with the pride flag, this is the only time I can be who I am, that I can reveal who I want to be.
I feel an incredible Connection to this flag and this Community.
I am screaming for people to notice the true me, This is my stage and I want to be free!!!
As I approached the end of the runway I look down to see Jeff and Olivia gazing up at me, the look on their faces is so smug.
I pick up my Energy!!!  waving my flags with pride.
In my head I am shouting, screaming to myself, this is for all the times we were separated, this is for all the times we're told not to be together ,this is for the injustice, the unnecessary hurt, The destruction that you've caused in our lives, The distance they tried to put between us, the staged stunts, the fake girlfriends, controlling us in every way, I am so sick of all this bull shit, this is for me.
I Grab the microphone close by as I stand in front of Jeff and Olivia, I take a deep breath in and say.
"Always feel proud of yourself , be whoever you want to be. I'll always love you for who you are and if you don't know who you are yet well that's fine as well, we are all figuring it out, I'm proud of you all , just remember that this is and always be a safe place".
The arena erupts into screaming cheers.
I see two young girls in each other's arms with tears streaming down their faces, I move closer to hear what they are saying.
"We came out because of you , you gave us the strength to be who we are, we love you so much thank you" they Say .
I get choked up with emotion " I am so happy for you" I say "I love you to" .
I make my way back around the stage, it's the screams that fuel my hunger,  it's the screams that make me carry on.
I pause for a moment when I notice in the crowd A  young man down on his knee holding a ring to his other half, I could see the boy's eyes glistening as he asked the question, The delight on his face was truly magnificent.
The freedom to be able to love freely is what I want,  this is what I crave.
" Did you just get engaged?" I asked .
" Did you say yes?, "  I ask, I can tell from his face already that I knew his answer. "congratulations" I yell, " I think I am going to cry".
I am telling the truth, I feel so many emotions running through me watching this unfold before my eyes.
My eyes start to well up but I refused to shed a tear.
I take a deep breath in trying to control myself, I quickly glance up, I know he is watching,  I know he's wishing as I am for us to be free.
I glance down at the ring on my finger, my peace ring, a beautiful token of our love, the ring I never take off, the ring that Lou gave me, the ring that means everything to me.
My brain is flooded with beautiful memories of our special night together. Lou Surprised me and took me out to dinner at one of our favourite restaurants.
As we finished our meal, Lou brought out a beautiful Velvet box, as I opened it, my eyes were met with two shiny matching silver rings with peace written on them, in my eyes they were truly stunning.
My eyes immediately misted over with tears, I looked up to find Lou's eyes instead  I find him kneeling on one knee, I thought this can't be happening, I can't speak, I am lost for words.
" My Hazza" he started, " I think I fell in love with you the moment our eyes met, I have never in my life felt like this, I didn't have a heart until I met you, you are my light that my soul craves to be whole.
There are many ways to be happy in this life but all I need is you, my heart will be your shelter and my arms will be your home.
"My love, will you marry me?".
I looked at him in disbelief, I couldn't believe that this was happening, I look into Lou's blue eyes " well," He said,  looking hopeful.
I was so overwhelmed by everything that he said that I forgot to answer .
"Yes , of course, yes, I will marry you" .
" Gee love, you had me worried for a minute, now there are two rings ,one for you and one for me".
"Yours has Hi on the inside and mine said oops, the first two words we said to each other" Lou said as he takes out the ring and slipped it onto my finger, "I promise to love you forever",   He said, as I get choked up with tears, I removed the other ring and slipped it onto Lou's finger, "
"I ask you to wear this today so that every day in every way you will be carrying a part of me and my love for you, when you look at this ring I want you to know that I will never stop loving you, you are my life and my only love, We will be together from the beginning to the end".
We fall into each other arms both with tears in our eyes. 
We were so excited to share our news with our bandmates, our brothers, and our families.
Our happiness was short-lived as soon as management saw we had matching rings, which cause an instant response, which we were not excepting.
" Do you know the damage you will cause if you wear the rings, you are practically telling them Larry is real" Simon yells at us.
" Are you are trying to sabotage the whole band and everything we have made so far, are you really that selfish" his voice drones on yelling.
We couldn't believe what we were hearing, I felt the tears start to slowly trickle down my face at this thought, I felt Lou's hand squeeze mine firmly in reassurance.
Once again Simon had taken from us the only thing we wanted, which was to be happy and to be together, but that was not in his plan for us, that was not the image he had for one direction, two bandmates being together and being in love.
" If you wear the rings in public, there will be the big consequence" Simon was still yelling at us.
We had no choice, we were bonded by a contract.
We finally negotiated that I would be allowed to wear my ring, but Lou wasn't, we agreed to this as we knew all the people we loved knew what the rings represent, little did Simon know that Lou had a plan.
A few days later Lou turned up with a new tattoo on his fingers, a 2 and 8 on the outside of his left-hand ring and middle fingers. The 28th was the day we had chosen for our wedding.
I don't know if people notice but whenever I am asked in interviews about marriage or dating I always play with My  peace ring , my little way of trying to get the fans to notice our love.
I bring the ring up to my lips and place a chase kiss on it,  I feel a tear slip from my eye, I hope no one can see it as I wipe it away, I finish off the song with a huge smile on my face, hiding my tears behind my smile.