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Fine line

welcome to Fine line , this chapter is about Harry and Lou and the struggles they face ,
The awful Olivia and Jeff , and how they suffer at their hands.
Warning smut , if it makes you uncomfortable don't read it. Enjoy
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" If you have a light on your phone now is the time to put it up " I say before I start the song .
The Arena is instantly lit up with incredible white light shining from ever direction, I feel like I am looking at a dark sky at night With thousands of stars shining , they are so bright contrast with The blackness of the Arena , it's truly breathtaking.
"Thankyou so much for everything tonight , I love you all , this is fine line".
I start strumming my guitar with the opening cords.
" Put a price on emotion".
" I'm looking for something to buy".
" You're got my devotion".
" But man I hate you sometimes".
Surprisingly  the arena is really hushed , as everyone takes in The lyrics of my last song for the night.
" I don't want to fight you".
" And I don't wanna sleep in the dirt".
" I will get the drinks in".
"So I'll get to think of him" .
Another Lyric swap, I slip in.
Fine line is my epic finale to my latest album , I felt so blessed when I was given the time and space to make it .
Fine line is an album about a 25-year-old navigating life, having sex and feeling sad.
I will look back on making this album as a very fun period of my life, I learnt so much about myself, I spent a lot of time just sitting and thinking and self reflecting .
When I was writing this album I saw it as a story that needed to be told live.
I wanted to Make it a joyous and fun experience for all the world to see, I Live to entertain and that's where I am the happiest , on stage in front of hundreds of thousands of people .
Fineline is about The definition line between ups and downs , a fine line drawn between two things , it means a clear-cut difference between two sides but also with blurred lines between a couple likes ,dislikes love , lust , happiness and sadness. It a fineline in Every relationship you have.
This ignites old memories, of Lou and I , I glance up looking for Lou's Silhouette , feeling anxious when I don't see him looking back, I start to feel a slight panic in the pit of my stomach wondering where he is , he's always their till the very end of the concert every night.
I put a smile on my face and continue on with the rest of The song, as I sing the last of the lyrics , the instrumental ,the finale begins .
I run and dance around the arena blowing kisses and waving and thanking everyone that was here tonight, it's the most incredible feeling .
As I make my way Back up to the centre of the stage and climb Onto the platform that will take me down .
" Goodnight and thankyou" I say before I go, as I reach the bottom I run through the crowd towards the curtain that will take me back stage , Jeff is there ready to pull the curtain for me , The screaming from the crowd is still deafening, as I move through it.
Before I can even have a chance to think my body is suddenly slammed into by a force which I know in an instant is Lou, he launches himself into my arms , Desperate to be close to me , I breathe  in his smell and It feels like I'm home.
In this instance we see flashes of lights as cameras  started going off  everywhere.
We haven't moved to far in from the stage,as I  looking behind me I see  Jeff's face with a look of  fury .
He Roughly pushes us in and closes the curtain.
"Louis for fuck sack, what do you think you are doing?" Jeff is yelling , I can feel Lou flinch in my arms He hates it when people yell.
" If this ends up on Twitter or tick-tock or any other social media there will be hell to pay , if people work out Louis is here with you ,then he is kicked of the tour.
I stop breathing for a second.
" You  can't do that?" we both said at the same time.
" Watch me, and Harry will be talking about all the lyric changes later on" Jeff's said storming off
Lou is clinging to me tightly, frightened if this was to come true.
" Love, look at me" I say.
Lou puts his head up and I see his eyes are glistening with tears.
" Lou , what happened?, why did you come down early ?, I looked for you and you Weren't there, your always there". I asked with concern.
" I don't want to talk about it Haz, I just need to be in your arms, just Hold me please"Lou said snuggling into my sweaty chest.
" Come on babe, let's go to my dressing room, I will change and we can go back to the hotel" I say to Lou as I gently place my hand on his lower back guiding him , I could tell something wasn't right , that he was upset.
You can still hear the crowds from up in the Arena , as they head out. I was wondering And hoping they had a fantastic time.
" It was an amazing concert Haz , the fans loved it" Lou said always knowing exactly what I am thinking .
I pull Lou into my Dressing room and close the door.
" Haz , I need you" He said jumping into my arms and wrapping his legs around my waist, trying to capturing my lips with his, I give into him only for a minute as he deepens the kiss.
I pull back just as the door is slammed open and Jeff is standing before us with a thunderous look on his face.
Lou hides his face in my chest not wanting to see Jeffs reaction.
" What  was all that fucking bullshit you pulled tonight Harry " He yells , Jeff is as bad as Simon  just as controlling and manipulative.
The media portrays our relationship as close friends but in fact it is nothing like that, he's always with me to make sure I'm doing the right thing, controlling me in every Way, watching what I say and  what I do, Sometimes I feel so claustrophobic as I never get time on my own without him around, except for the privacy of my bedroom or hotel room. Everything about Jeff is for his career and for publicity.
" Already I have heard talk and seen speculation going around on Twitter, someone Got a photo of you back on Harry , with Lou's arm around you, where you can clearly see his tattoos"Jeff is yelling and pacing around the room.
" You could've ruined everything I've worked hard for Harry , if people find out you are gay, it's going to be the end of your career, I can't fucking believe this shit, what a mess this is going to be to clean up" Jeff slams his fist against the wall.
Jeff moves over to stand next to Lou Who still had his face hidden in my chest, grabbing his arm " fuck Louis , really what were you thinking, look at me" He yells Forcefully pulling Lou out of my arms making him yell out.
" Get your hands off him" I yell into Jeff's face pulling Lou back to me , who lets out a yell of distressed , I can feel his body shaking as I hold him tightly.
" Well guess what Harry , you will be seeing a lot more of Olivia in the coming weeks and you Only have yourself and Lou to blame, get out of here and expect to hear from me in the morning " Jeff's turns and exits the room , leaving us standing in silence.
"I'm sorry Haz" Lou whispers quietly.
"It's not your fault, come on baby let's get out of here".
We move from the room to the car that is waiting to take us to The hotel we are staying at .
We don't always stay in hotel rooms we mainly stay On the bus except when we know we  will be staying a few nights over close by .
I realise as we get into the back of the car that Lous breathing is sounding a bit funny.
"Lou, look at me" I say anxiously.
As he looks up I can see the panic on his face as he knows he is on borderline of having panic attack.
Lou is struggle trying to get oxygen into his lungs.
" Lou is ok , just breath with me" I tell him , I can see he is to far gone, I quickly pull him into my lap straddling my waist, I place his hand over my heart.
"Come on Lou , breath in And out with me , that's it , follow the beat Of my heart" I say , " feel it"
After a few minutes I start to feel him slowly coming back , his breathing starting  to slow down .
" It's ok baby" I feel the car slowing down as we arrive at the hotel .
" We are here , let's go up to our room".
"Haz" Lou said looking up at me still a little bit disorientated, I hold his hand and pull him out of the car with me, I pull him in close and pull his hoodie up over his head .
My security guards walk behind us at a distance respecting our privacy, they Know exactly how it is, they know what we put up with.
I lead Lou through the foyer into the waiting elevator which quickly take us up to our floor, once inside our room I pull Lou into my arms .
" Now baby , tell me what upset you so much?".
Lou use to be the most outgoing ,out spoken , confidence person , but over the years by the way  he was  treated by Simon and Syco he has become a shell of the person he use to be , he gets really bad anxiety, Panic attacks and Depression , it hasn't been easy but I made a life commitment to Him , through the good and the bad , I will never break the promise I made him,  to always be his side no matter what.
Things have been a little bit better lately,  things are improving, recently Lou left Simon Cowell and his record label Syco, as well as finished his time as a judge on the X factor, which finished his 10 year contract.
The contract that he signed so I could be free, it still upsets me a lot thinking of all the years that Lou has suffered at the hands of Simon and Syco .
Lou is starting to  get excited for the future and to get back in the studio writing his next album and also to start touring with his own show.
Lou turns his face up to look at mine
"It was Olivia , she came up to see me in vip room" Lou admitted, his voice cracking close to tears .
" She basically said that she is with you now and she is going to make sure it turns into more then just a stunt".
" That bitch, but Lou You Know that will never happen , it's only you Lou ,always has been , always will be"  I pull him in close kissing him gently on the lips .
" You and me baby always and forever" .
" Don't ever listen to her again , she can try as hard as she likes, it won't get her anywhere, Your my forever person".
"I so need a shower baby , care to join me?" I say getting Up from the bed and walk backwards taking my clothes of as I Go, this sparks that look in his eyes as he gets of the bed and follows me into the bathroom.
I feel so hot and sweaty after the concert , peeling my clothes off is a relief, As I reach in to turn the shower on I feel Lou pressed up against my back,  his arms wrapping around my waist.
" You're all I need Haz" He said as I feel him press gentle kisses on my back , my cock immediately responding.
Lou turns me around bringing his arms up around my neck pulling me into a kiss, our lips fit perfectly together.
He moves one of his hands down my body, my skin alights with sparks Underneath his finger tips , my stomach is swirling, it's always like this, there's always a spark and a earth moving connection.
Lou makes his way down my body , He grasp the base of my cock and Stares up into my eyes as he slowly licks the tips , I can't help but let out a moan as he takes my cock into his mouth, as he starts sucking and swirling his tongue , I grab a handful of his hair as he moves taking me in and out of his mouth, bobbing his head.
As He quickens his pace I feel the sensation rising through my body, " oh shit Lou , your so fucking good at this baby", I lean my hands against the shower wall holding myself up.
Lou moans around my cock , He hollows out his cheeks sliding faster bringing me to the edge of orgasm, I give up all my self control and spill down Lou's throat.
Lou rises slowly against my body placing a kiss on my lips.
" My turn" I say smirking sliding down his body , forgetting about everything that happened today , and enjoying the moment.