Hiding behind Rainbows 🌈

Sunflower 🌻

I hope you are enjoying the books so far , I have been watching so many live streams from Harry's love on concerts , it's the only good thing about Lockdown, I get the time to experience it , which has been fabulous.
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The intro to sunflower start as I look around the Arena , it's suddenly filled with yellow sunflowers , I am in awe As I look onto a sea of yellow , my fans are incredible, I lean down onto the stage and pick up  a sunflower bringing it up to my face , the smell reminded me of sunshine .
I take a quick glance up to the vip box knowing Lou would be looking on , I can just see his face alight with delight.
I take a deep breath in letting it out " Are you ready to dance with me Portland" I yell out to the crowd, the Response is Electric!!!
" Sunflower"
"My eyes, want you you more Then a melody"
"Let me inside"
"Wish I could get to know you"
The sea of yellow flowers are moving along to the music which look like yellow waves rolling in a ocean , I am in awe at this incredible sight.
This song makes my heart happy , it's a song to fall in love with, it's a song for my sunflower Lou.
" sunflower"
"Sunflower"
" Keep it sweet in your memory"
"I was just tongue tied"
I start my little dance I lean down and grab my yellow boa and pull it around my neck , the fan scream so loud , wearing a boa has suddenly become my signature thing to do , I continue to sing as I flip it around , dancing along to my song.
The lights that surround me tonight for this song ,are blue and green, it is such a spectacular sight.
Blue and green just Another sign from me to my fans that Lou and I are concrete, stuck together, never To part.
" I Couldn't want him any more"
"Kiss in the kitchen like it's a dance floor"
"I couldn't want him any more tonight"
I continue on with my song wondering if anyone notices that I've change the lyrics from you to him , this is my little way of conveying that I'm still with Lou, and that we are still together through it all , nothing can break our bond , no matter how hard they try no matter what they throw at us , we get through, true soulmates forever.
I Believe in soulmates , the moment our eyes met , when green eyes met blue .
I know Lou is my Best friend and so much more,  he's the one person in the world that knows me better than anyone else , he makes me strive to be a better person.
Lou  is my forever person , He believe's  in me and loves me Unconditionally , I will always love him and nothing can change that.
We have negotiated so many challenges,  we have loved each other through all the happy times and the hard times, we connect on the deepest level , my heart flutters thinking about this .
I attach my gaze to him , I know this gives us away every time because they know who I am looking at when our eyes lock, it's like the rest of the world is a mere murmur in the background , they know that I only have eyes for him .
Lou is my sweet creature  and I am his habit .
I think back to our trip to Paris in 2012 , and our interview on valentine's Day , we were taken into a room with 2 chairs and a table , we sat down and the interviewer introduced herself.
I tried to speak a little French  but it wasn't the best , as we were asked were we had met , Lou grab my chair and pulled it over next to his , as he brushed against my arm I felt goosebumps and my heart started to beat faster, being this close to Lou makes my soul ignite.
We were asked about Boot Camp and Our time in the Xfactor ,  she showed us pictures and asked to comment how we felt about them , one was a piece of fan art which described each boy in two words "I was hot and dangerous" , "I like the dangerous" I say.
" Not  hot" the interviewer says .
Lou then chimes in "of course he's hot"
The description of Lou was fun and adorable , I then answered without thinking "I would describe Lou as funny and handsomely rugged".
"Thank you , thank you " Lou saids blushing as our eyes lock again .
When asked if Lou and I were close  I answered " we are friends but when we need each other we are more like brother, because we are so close, we spend every minute  of every day together."
Which was so correct , we are inseparable , we are one .
We were asked to describe each other in one word lou decided to go with "curly" for me , Lou is  obsessed with my hair  and my curls,  he was constantly running his hands through it .
I smile at this nickname I absolutely adore it , I look for Lou' s eyes and We get locked in a trance just smiling at each other , talking in our silent language , which now is referred to as  our " look" .
I always call Lou "boo bear" that's it for me .
I feel Lou's arm curls around the back of my shoulder, as we lean into each other , I take a deep breath in and let it out slowly overwhelmed by the feelings of him so close to me.
I felt his arm move away as I glance up I see a look on our management Face which was clouded with anger at what he had just done .
I knew in a Instant that this would be our first and last interview on our own together .
I hear the interviewer ask about Valentine's Day ,
"It is valentine's Day ,  I'm Single , Valentine's Day in Paris , the city of love" I say .
Lou gives me a glare when I say Single , he knows I have to do it for the cameras but he still doesn't like to hear  it.
Lou then said "I've  got a girlfriend"
The pain that these words evoke is like poking a bruise , It's like an all consuming stabbing agony , which I suffer every time he Utters those words.
The next question out of the interviewer mouth was what type of boyfriend was Lou .
I jumped in without thinking, the words came automatically to me .
"He is caring , he treats me really well" Lou gives a nervous little giggle at this, diverting his eyes from management . The interviewer then asked us to sing her a song as a gift for her for Valentine's Day .
Lou and I  look at each other and decided to have a bit of fun with this.  "we will make one up"  he saids .
We picked up items on the table ,  the bottles of water  became our microphones , the rolled up magazine became  our drum .
Lou joined in Tapping the side of his glass bottle  and we sang the word
" valentine's Day" "valentine's Day"  " what a lovely day is valentine's Day" .
The interview finally wrapped up after this , they allowed  us to leave the room .
As we walked out of the interview our arms were grabbed harshly , management was not happy .
I slowly Bring my mind back to the Arena not wanting to remember about  the consequences that came from that interview, it was heart wrenching.
" Sunflower"
" My eyes"
" Want you more than a melody"
" Let me inside"
" Wish I could get to know you"
" Sunflowers just died"
" Keep it sweet in your memory"
" I'm still tongue-tied"
" Sunflower"
Lou's favourite flower is a sunflower, I love surprising him with them, whenever we are apart I always make sure he receives sunflowers.
I fill our house and his dressing room with them so He knows I am always thinking of him, that I love him and he knows that he is surrounded by my love , my sunflower.
I look around me , there are so many people dresses is so many ways , I see people dresses as watermelons, kiwi fruit , bananas , there are bananas everywhere!!!
I decided to start a song.
"Everyone now"
" She   is dresses as a Banana ,  she's dresses as a Banana , yeah yeah"
"He is dressed as a banana, He is dressed as a banana yeah yeah"
" They are dressed as a banana , they are dressed as a banana yeah yeah"
I change the lyrics as I point to different people dressed in the crowd.
I so love this ridiculous song I have made up , the crowd goes wild for it, joining in and singing along .
The crowd tonight is electric, it is such an incredible site from where I am standing, The outfits , the signs , is just truly amazing.
"What we are going to do before we move on is, there is a sign over there and it's a joke and I'm going read it out, just for the people of Portland okay"
"How does the moon cut his hair?".
"How?"the crowd scream.
" He eclipse it".
" it's a absolute stinker".
"It's a stinker".
"I won't get over that one too fast, and I'll tell you, you'll be taking that home ,you'll be using it at your next barbecue I promise you, I promise you".
I have always been known for my jokes on stage, it's just another part of me and how I express myself, some of my favourite jokes I use are.
"Knock knock!
"who's there"
"A cow goes"
"A cow goes who"
"No a cow goes moo!
This ones is a oldie but a goodie.
"Knock knock"
"Who's there"
"Little old lady"
"Little old lady who"
"I didn't know you could yodel"
There are so many jokes on signs tonight , while I sing I take notice of what they are, And decided which's ones I will read out .
It's such a fun part of the show .
" Well moving onto the next song shall we".